Quote from dharmalove
I am a first year nurse in Med Surg and just had my first patient pass. The patient was fine according to my assessment.
i worry will this come back to me in any way if I missed something? I honestly don't know what I could have done, what I could have missed, as there were no signs of respiratory distress or history..
It's difficult, dharmalove, loosing a patient and feeling as though you're responsible for this patient's welfare and perhaps could have done more to have prevented the outcome.
The fact is we can only do so much. "We do what we can, but the end result is in God's hands". Or the Fates. Or whatever gives you peace.
I was a brand new RN when a patient passed on my watch. Totally unexpected. The patient was in the detox side of chemical dependency treatment and I had rounded on them according to protocol. I was just passing the patient's room, going on break, and thought I'd just look in even though it wasn't time. The patient was laying in the same position as the last time I had rounded and this feeling went through me. I checked and found no pulse or respirations, called a code and we could not bring them back.
The hospital where I worked had a debriefing/support meeting thereafter which really helped. I've lost several patients before and since then and have dealt with it by realizing that I can only do the best that I can and that I cannot control everything.
The very best to you, dharmalove.