I recently have and I'm still crushed as ever.
For years I've wanted to be an RN in the military. I was recently accepted into a nursing program, so that half of the dream will be fulfilled while the military portion will not.
I was cooking last night when I had a breakdown over it in the kitchen, tears and all. I did not know how competitive it was and I also have celiac disease. I was offered a waiver in the past when I tried to go AF before I finished my pre-reqs but once it reached the NG bureau it was shot down. People under normal health circumstances trying to go into the nurse corps with high grades are still turned down. Me fresh out of school with no experience PLUS celiac? Not going to happen.
Now I'm trying to come to grips with being a civillian nurse and I admit it is hard. I know there is plenty of fulfillment to be had out there, I'm just stuck with the picture of what I expected myself to be, which is a soldier.
Not everyone can have every single dream of their's fulfilled in their lifetime. Have you ever had to give up a dream? Why, and where are you today? Do you feel fulfilled? I would love some feedback/inspiration/advice.
I really am horribly torn up about this. I mentally cannot seem to move forward.
I had to give up a job I really enjoyed, one that finally paid me about what I should have been paid, had great benefits, because I became seriously ill and am no longer able to work. I've carved out a little niche for myself, writing articles for a gated online site related to my specialty, so that helps to some degree, but it's not the same.
Last edit by OCNRN63 on Aug 23, '13