Hi all, so today has been a particularly awful day. I am a second-semester nursing student in an accelerated program so I am in school all this summer.
This semester I have my Medsurge clinical at the veterans hospital and for some reason, it seems that all the instructors there are particularly strict. My CI is new, we are are her first group however, she trained under another VA clinical instructor who is also known for being tough.
Coming from a different hospital with a particularly nice CI for foundations who was not as strict on paperwork, I am shocked by the high expectations of my CI and what little time she expects me to have it all together and be proficient. I'm only now really understanding what she expects of us, and how nothing is going to be the same or similar to my previous clinical experience. However, I have only just learned all of this because she pulled me aside and with another instructor before clinical went over what was wrong with my paperwork. Then, she sent me home saying she didn't think my care plan was efficient enough to take care of my patient today.
I was so livid, this is only 2nd clinical day, but 1st clinical with medications. In my prior semester I'd never done preplanning the night before, just 45 min before the tradeoff. I'd never done med cards either. I honestly feel like it was a very harsh judgement to place on me considering my prior experience, but it's very hard to explain that since everyone in my group comes from different instructors (some of whom, also had higher expectations thus making those student's transition to our current instructor's expectations a lot easier). I feel like I have been placed at a disadvantage due to my school not having a set standard of expecations for each clinical group so we all end up with different baselines.
In the meeting I tried to explain myself, but it really seemed pointless because I still didn't have what was needed for that clincal day. I also felt intimidated by the other CI that my CI brought in with her. She was very stern with me, and I felt like she maybe had the impression that I was just lazy rather than misguided. It was so bad. I feel like such an idiot because I haven't grasped things as quickly as the others in my group.
Any tips for dealing with really strict instructors?