I've been a nurse for about 2 1/2 years now. In January of this year I started a new job after getting married and moving. At my previous job I felt like I was always giving so much of myself while at work but my manager and co-workers made it a good place to work and we tried to build each other back up. At my new job, I feel like I'm just giving of myself until I'm empty and no one else seems to care. The response I get if I'm overwhelmed with my patient load or just have an extremely time-consuming or needy patient is "Sorry." I'm the kind of person who wants to go above and beyond in my patient care, but sometimes I just reach this point where when no one else is trying to do the same, I don't either. I hate reaching the "I don't care" stage.
I know this isn't all coming from my work life, it's partly from home - afterall, I did just get married and move to a new town and I'm reaching the same point at home. I feel like I'm always the one giving, planning, etc and no one is giving back to me.
I guess I'm just venting and wondering if anybody else gets this way? I know that nursing is a 'giving' profession - ask any nursing student why they went into nursing and probably 90% say 'to help people.' But if we give so much - emotionally, physically, and spiritually - at work and then give more at home, what's the solution?
I wish the answer was as easy as finding a new job, but we're in a small town with 1 hospital and I check for jobs every day. I start back to school in August (doing RN-BSN) and am thinking about taking a few days to myself and going somewhere. My husband has had several conferences that he's gone to this summer where he's been able to get away and de-stress, but I stayed home and worked. Maybe that's what I need? I want to go somewhere and get a massage and lay by the pool all day and drink martinis. I feel better just thinking about it!
But seriously, what do you do about the constant giving until you're tank is empty when at work? We're nurses, we give, so how do you feel up your tank?
If you've read through my rambling, thanks!