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New mommy 26

New mommy 26 BSN, RN

Med/Surg; Case Management; LTC
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New mommy 26 has 18 years experience as a BSN, RN and specializes in Med/Surg; Case Management; LTC.

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  1. New mommy 26

    DONE DONE DONE!!! FREEDOM

    So I checked in this morning at 1:00 am as is my habit for the past 6 years. No test. Meanwhile yesterday I did get tested. So anyway. I checked in again around 10:00 am today and bam account has been DISABLED. WHAT THE HELL. I was done my contract on the 15th of September. I think they were so tired of my endless emails LOL. Anyway I call Recovery trek because getting your case manager on the phone is impossible LOL. And yes my account was finished on 09/16/2020 at 4:36 pm. I tested at 5:30 pm but whatever let them have the final 30.00 LOL. I AM DONE DONE DONE. I bought 6 poppy seed bagels after checking my license went from Probation to Active. HOLY CRAP ITS DONE. NOTHING NOT EVEN CROSSING THE FINISH LINE AT THE IRONMAN FEELS GOOD AS THIS!!! I have interviews tomorrow for home care and I plan on just focusing on my nursing ability.
  2. New mommy 26

    Tnpap and drinking

    Congratulations. Lesson Learned...HUGS keep moving forward.
  3. New mommy 26

    Crazy Things in Last 30 days or so

    I have been in PNAP for 6+ years. It is a long story but alas the end is in sight. So like I said I have been doing this program and not really being super concerned with anything EXCEPT poppy seeds and cough medicine. I have had many a nasty flu season that I suffered through not taking one single cough medication for fear. Anyway now I am so PARANOID about perfume, sanitizers, food (super ripe bananas), what did they make my dinner with, sugar alcohols in sugar free candy, my diet pills (OTC of course), if my continued struggle with an eating disorder will throw off my Chemistry so I show a false positive like diabetics do. So what did I do I spent 25.00 on testing strips for alcohol in urine. I know for a fact I do not take anything that I do not have a script for but am now super paranoid about the "incidental" alcohols I have read about. Took my pee test on my own today and had one of those faint lines in the negative which means it is still negative. Has anyone else been super paranoid at the end like this. These last 30 days or so are harder than waiting to do my Ironman last year. Lord did I have questions and worries about that race especially with Jelly Fish in the water during the swim, and yes I got stung about 30 times, what if I get a flat, fear and constant sleepless nights. This is so much HARDER than that was. I mean in 6 years I will be honest I have eaten cookie dough, I have used syrups in my coffee that where sugar free, I used soy sauce with my food, and I used real mouthwash every now and then and even once had an Odules (NASTIEST STUFF IN THE WORLD) never popped positive for alcohol AT ALL. Why am I so FREAKING NUTSO NOW!!!!! The only thing that keeps me sane is coming on here and reading and remembering where I came from and how long I have withstood this. I am sure I will look back and be like WOW! that went by so fast, but right now it feels like the 3 weeks before the Ironman and there is nothing I can do now except wait. The proof will be when I cross the line. Thanks for letting me vent.
  4. New mommy 26

    STUPID, JUST STUPID

    So I am at work and you know how we are all mandated to wear masks throughout the day/night. Well my mask was getting sort of smelly so I sprayed some body spray into my mask and then put it back on my face. I worked 4 hours with that on and just now sitting back at my desk at work I am looking at it and it is full of ALCOHOL! I had option 3 today should I say something to case manager or see if it comes back a non issue. I ordered ETG tests online today to get me through the next month of what I am sure will be at least 5 tests. Let me put it this way I have eaten super ripe fruit, drank one or two Kombucha in a week, and have an ongoing soy sauce problem and nothing ever showed up. But I also never inhaled perfume in a mask. Anyone have advice. Yes I am in the last month and I am LOSING IT!
  5. New mommy 26

    Affinity drug testing

    I am about 30 days away from the finish line and after reading this am sooooo grateful we use Recovery Trek. I check in Monday through Friday. But alas I also get the almighty #3 and #4 and #10 (blood) ALOT. LOL just stay away from everything not given in a prescription and your good. I have scripts for Benedryl due to eczema and night time itching that causes my skin to bleed, Prozac, Flexaril, and Kdur and Mag. Tons of creams and topicals for eczema. Only had one positive which was dismissed once they got my scripts. Whew
  6. New mommy 26

    Tnpap and drinking

    I am so sorry this happened to you. This is one of the biggest reasons I never went to parties for the past 6+ years. Yes it is entirely possible that it will show up. I would not tell your monitor case manager yet until you test. If you do then I would have your friend call your case manager and tell her or write a letter. You are early into this process yet so maybe the consequences will not be as terrible. No more drinking something that is not in its original container like a bottle of water at parties. Hang in there.
  7. Holy Sugar. After 6+ years of monitoring the end is in sight. I have never in my life been so freaking excited as I am right now. To think this is going to be over and I will have my life back. I wanted to know from those who have completed is it normal to be anxious and mildly irritable as you await the last 4 weeks or so. Ugh the wait is agonizing.
  8. New mommy 26

    Positive 40 days from the end WOW!

    so I am literally 40 days out and was given option 4. I called my case manager at PNAP and was like you do have my list of meds right. She was like no. I immediately sent her the list which for me includes Cyclobenzaprine; Diet Pills Stacker; Prozac; otc water pills; Naproxen; Benedryl; KDur; Mag; and Melatonin. I then get an email today that my option 4 drug test showed medications they don't have on file for me. I have been taking this *** for over a year and nothing then I get option 4 and I am told I am positive. Anyone know what could be showing up as a substance of abuse. No sleep tonight
  9. New mommy 26

    Hand Sanitizer

    You would need to bath in it for it to pop up as a positive for alcohol. That is EXACTLY what my case worker told me.
  10. New mommy 26

    Funny not Funny

    So I am working at a LTC facility and I am in a room helping one of the residents when I hear a nurse and a nursing assistant talking about things that will cause a false positive on a drug test. So unbeknownst to me who has been tested for over 6 years and has a strong use of Red Bull and Monster, these energy drinks including my beloved 5-hour energy drink can cause false positive for WAIT FOR IT...Opiates. UM WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?! WOW! so not only did I need to bite my tongue super hard but I had to keep from laughing. Okay I could see something like false positive for uppers but opiates. Things that make you go HMMMMMMM. Roughly 66 days away now from the finish line.
  11. New mommy 26

    My Involvment Got Told From HR to Staff

    Hey all so I am literally 4 months from the end of 6 years of monitoring. Just to give some background...I absolutley diverted and absolutley was a nightmare participant in my states recovery program so badly I surrendered my license in 2011. I petitioned for voluntary monitoring not working ad a nurse in 2014 after the birth of my daughter. I went through the process of monitoring to prove my sobriety in 2017 I was granted the ability to practice with another 3 years of monitoring. I worked as a case manager once I passed the boards again. When Covid hit I was like perfect I am going back to the bedside they need me now. And I landed a job in a LTAC. I was caring for a group of patients last weekend that had heavy narcotics. I gave the patients pain medications as prescribed. The next night a friend called me to let me know that the night supervisor approached her about a certain patient who had pain meds given to him twice during my shift. This poor guy has a stage 4 I could put my fist into and was over breathing the vent. The nursing super isor told my friend who was defending the use of narcotics optics in this patient said well if you knew who was on the cart these nights you would not be defending her. I have a new job in a nursing home starting tomorrow and am scared to death to go back. I have literally had 6+ years of clean urine what would you do. My fear is they will start a rumor and an investigation that will be unfounded but will make me suspect and delay my release. What would you all do?
  12. So here is my dilemma. Surrendered nursing license in 2011. Cannot even approach BON until 2016. I am getting so busy in my life and am interviewing for a job that if I get it will make complying with the group therapy mandate impossible. Was thinking what would happen if I just quit the program until 2016, maintained sobriety, documented meetings and just waited to see what happens. Let me just stop the comments to come by saying I am sober and love my life sober so it is not because I want to just party and destroy my life again. Done that, wrote a book, don't want to do that again. I wish I could just do the drug monitoring and maybe therapy and my meetings and call it a day. This group therapy nursing thing blows and I refuse to turn down any opportunities now or in the future to pursue other goals. Any thoughts? P.S. Non nursing opportunities that could spell a new career.
  13. New mommy 26

    Before you judge the addicted nurse.....

    Lub Dub, AMEN. I was getting super upset and trying to find the positives in this thread, then I found your post. That day before that judge is the only judgement that will and should ever truly matter.
  14. New mommy 26

    Calling it quits after 17 years....

    To The OP I actually agree so much with you. while I am still committed to the program I am also wondering if all of this, meaning the program(PNAP) is worth the hassle. Sometimes I wonder about the what ifs. What if I never find a nursing job. What if when I do return to nursing, if I return, I will even like being a nurse. I enjoy helping people but there has to be another way I can help people. I am definitely happier sober and found a relationship with God that means more to me than any license. I ponder all these things and must say the conclusion I came to was the same, as long as I am sober and trust my life to God that is more than I could have ever asked for.