Hello, I just wanted some opinions of what others thought on the subject. I am a third year nursing student. I am constantly overwhelmed by the depth of pathophysiology we must learn as nurses for a variety of disease processes. I find myself constantly going back and looking at information and terminology.
My problem is with terminology. For example, having to remember cancer names (ie. fibroma, lipoma, etc) does not suit me well. I hate memorizing. Same goes with medications and lab ranges.
However, I UNDERSTAND pathophysiological disease processes and how they affect organ systems, presenting symptoms, expected lab values, etc.
I find myself having to always look back at medications names, memorizing their indications, side effects, and special considerations and it is very discouraging.
I have an 80% avg (~) and pride myself in not spending hours upon hours trying to memorize information. Rather, I plan to study well in advance, utilizing different study techniques (ie. highlighting important information, making charts, venn diagrams, concept maps, and watch Youtube videos to solidify what I know).
I constantly focus on the negative (ie. things that I do not know) and waste my life focusing on how I need to achieve this unrealistic state of "perfection". I get anxious and isolate myself from others as I feel unworthy. Failing at something would kill me. Not knowing something makes me feel lesser or inferior to others. I stay awake at night thinking of patient scenarios. Think about how I would react. What I would say. More importantly, what I would do.
I would like to know if anyone feels the same way. Perhaps share some tips to get over or treat this anxiety. I just need to know that I am not alone in this.