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you are awesome! if you want this you can do it! it will be stressful for a few years...just how it is...there is a ton to learn, just how it is...each day will be better though.
have you tried a naturopath for your anxiety? we have my daughter on a few supplements and thought I would try that out. I assume you already have good coping mechanisms, meditation or whatever.
good luck to you!
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I was where you are now except the moving part. Trauma is amazing,scary and every emotion you can think of balled into one shift. It does get better the more you learn. Jumping in and taking care of the "sicker" pts with back up is a great way to get your feet wet. Its hard to learn by watching. I know how scary it is to have vents, gtts, ICP monitoring, neuro checks q1h with the basic care and charting. Any doubts, concerns or questions re your pts should be asked, never be afraid to ask questions. While your preceptor is a different type you may learn the most from him/her.
You have only been working for 6 shifts, this is a normal feeling. If you feel it is getting too much and your anxiety is stopping you, could you ask for "easier" pts to learn the ropes and help others with the more intense trauma's.. Give yourself time, it will take a few months to be OK with the new pt population but much longer to be proficient in trauma..
Hang in there :)
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The above suggestions are good. As someone who suffers from anxiety, I know I am unable to handle a lot of situations without help from my physician. Family therapy has helped me learn coping skills that actually work and keep me level-headed. This may not be the answer for you, but it helps me tremendously. Good luck!
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Some anxiety is normal for a new grad to feel and it will eventually subside as you experience more things including codes. Have you talked to your preceptor about your feelings? Part of precepting is teaching the concepts, making sure the orientee is safe, and the emotional well being of the orientee. I usually ease the new grad into it and am glued to them initially. I don't throw new grads into a disaster until they are ready; usually closer to the end of orientation. If talking to your preceptor doesn't change how she interacts with you to be more physically there, then you need to talk to your manager. A good preceptor will adapt teaching style to the learning needs of the orientee. If your anxiety doesn't become more manageable and your orientation experience doesn't improve, maybe you need a new preceptor. Talk to your preceptor first! She may be unaware of your anxiety level.
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I also suffer from generalized anxiety. I used to take meds for it but stopped because of some of the side effects. I have come to the realization that I do not do well in high stress areas of nursing such as ICU, ED, Labor in delivery and etc. Although, I currently work in ICU, I can only do it two days a week... not full time. I'm not saying don't give up on your dream job, however your dreams turns into a nightmare when you just cannot cope.
There is a difference between new job stress and what you described. I would advise doing some soul searching and looking at jobs that are less stressful. Working in ICU is great, however it is not the end of the world if you are not an ICU nurse. If you are an ICU nurse that is great and I truly hope it works out. Give it more time and just stay true to yourself.
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Just to let everyone know.... It's all going well!! SICU is terrifying, hard, fun, amazing, and I'm so glad I stuck with it. I just finished my first week off orientation and did well. I'm excited to continue learning and growing. Still a lot to learn, still anxiety provoking but I'm happy and I love my job! It helps that I work with some of the most amazing people. ICU is challenging and inspiring, I am so proud to say I'm an ICU nurse!
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seanpdent, ADN, BSN, MSN, APRN, NP
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First of all congrats on finding your dream job. Knowing what you want and then finding it takes courage.
I would highly suggest telling this exact story to your preceptor as well as your unit director/manager. You are definitely NOT alone in how you are feeling, but don't ignore it either.
Just because it is a common reaction doesn't make it any less complex.
You're right, the anxiety and fear will decrease the more you learn, the more you grow and the more comfortable you get, but you have to allow the transition to work for you and not against you. Learning should be fun, not intimidating and fearful. A certain level of anxiety is expected, but don't let it paralyze you.
Hang tough and definitely talk it out with those in charge of your orientation, if you truly want to give this the best shot you got, then be sure to share your feelings with those that can help make a difference. If you're unit and co-workers are as good as you think they are, they will greet your fears with open arms and help you navigate your way through this tough time.
Best of luck!