Quote from rsbirdie
My preceptor is there every time (almost) I give meds, start feedings, and assess patients, unfortunately the manager hasn't seen that because she's not on the unit. I document on my own and the nurse checks over it later and I've been doing well.
If you are doing well, then maybe you need to be discussing the actual perception, especially with your manager.
The preceptor hasn't made an effort to befriend me so it's a very awkward relationship.
Maybe it's me, but I think you should not be concerned to "befriend" your preceptor; it's a means to an end of this "relationship". The matter is that you need to demonstrate competence; that garners you respect; an IMHO, respect is far better than being "befriended".
She has made it clear that she doesn't want to do be my teacher as she just got done with someone else. I am going to tell her that we need to be together every minute whether useful or not and as far taking care of 7 patients...I know the routine however i just feel I don't have enough days in yet to take her full load. What I feel the most is that my manager and the nurses don't want me there and I've felt that from day 1. It seems like a very miserable work place.
And again, I cannot assess that because I'm not there; however, again, the perception of you, plus what you think about the workload can be presenting a particular perception that can be erased IF you show competency; that's going to save you your job.
You are also new, and you may feel an intense need to "fit in"; the most important thing to do is focus in your nursing practice and get confidence. So, make sure you are advocating for yourself, grab a brain sheet on AN (use the search engine on here and you will find threads with brain sheets) and tailor it to your workload-trust me it will IMPROVE your current practice and give you a way to organize and be able to handle the workload that you are faced with.
Keep working and be confident; speak up and as long as you respect your nursing practice an competence; everything else will fall into place.