Nurses struggling with mental illness

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I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major co-morbid mental illness, Major depression/PTSD/DID, and have had many problems in my career. I have been in therapy and on meds for a long time and have worked very hard to be functional, and I have suprised myself by what I have been able to achieve. Currently, I am a hospice nurse in a residential setting and it seems that I have found my niche. It doesn't aggravate my illness too much. I am very busy at times and most of my job revolves in much cognitive thinking and decision making about the best ways to respond to a patient's emerging or existing symptoms, and in assessing patients to see where they are in the dying process, plus lots of educating to patients and families. My extensive personal trauma background has made me able to have a different perspective on death and don't see it as the scary thing that is SO SAD, that a lot of people do. Plus, because of the things that I have been through, I am more able to be compassionate and understanding of patients and their fears. I especially do well with patients with existing mental illness or lots of anxiety. I notice that a lot of nurses have little tolerance for a patients anxiety and are not willing to take the extra time to walk them through things and provide the extra reassurance that they need.

Yes, there are some nursing jobs that I don't think I would be able to do because of the fast on the spot life and death action necessary. ER and Trauma/Burn are pretty much out for me. But thats OK. A lot of nurses couldn't handle doing what I do either for their own reasons. We are all suited to certain things.

Having mental illness doesn't automatically make you unsuited for the nursing profession. Even though I have heard many times, "what are you doing here?" "Shouldn't you be doing something else, less stressful?"

I am here and am doing the thing I am suited for. Yes sometimes I have to take time off due to my illness, but its no different than somone who has flare ups of a chronic physical illness like lupus, chronic fatigue, or fibromyalgia.

I would like to know how other nurses have coped with their own illness and their nursing careers.

Severina

Specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..
Heh, that's nothing. Here you have to tell the DMV if you are Bipolar AND get a doctor's release before getting your driver's license.

I don't think it's discrimination at all. By nature and definition, those of us with mental illnesses are inherently unstable. I like having extra eyes on me. They are usually the ones that see a problem early on.

Eh, yeah, you are right too... that "Who do they think they ARE!" righteous indignation CAN come from a purely manic state of mind.

Sometimes it IS righteous lol... sometimes though we exaggerate our own abilities, our own worth. We always ought to have another opinion of "who in the world WE think we are."

Thanks for the reality check.

Much as I HATE IT sometimes! Argh... ;)

(((((((Stanley ))))))))))))))

Eh, yeah, you are right too... that "Who do they think they ARE!" righteous indignation CAN come from a purely manic state of mind.

Sometimes it IS righteous lol... sometimes though we exaggerate our own abilities, our own worth. We always ought to have another opinion of "who in the world WE think we are."

Thanks for the reality check.

Much as I HATE IT sometimes! Argh... ;)

(((((((Stanley ))))))))))))))

Oh heh. I only get hypomanic. I can pull off my claims of grandiosity. I just can't make the hypomania last long enough to make it marketable. :)

Specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..
Oh heh. I only get hypomanic. I can pull off my claims of grandiosity. I just can't make the hypomania last long enough to make it marketable. :)

Oh I have had my full blown mania before, don't get me wrong. But the hypomania more often - and yes, it's like that for me too!

Unfortunately anxiety can kick me into hypomania - and what ELSE is starting a new job about? I have to be vewwy vewwy caweful ... and humble ;) ... when I start a new position. Such a delicate balance between being half apathetic - and being supernurse ... lol...

Specializes in Med/Surg.

I have ptsd as well and can understand how hard it is to function in a stressful environment. Kudos to you for your excellent coping skills!

Specializes in Med surg, Critical Care, LTC.

While I see your point Stanley, I don't agree. Perhaps you've been fortunate to not experience discrimination with your diagnosis, but I have with mine. Even though in my state you do not have to disclose, word gets around a smallish hospital, and while I am successfully being treated for my depression, anxiety and PTSD, oh and I'm a "functional agoraphobic" - that's a new diagnosis, I have paid the price in losing all my credibility and respect that I worked so hard to achieve.

If I had been diagnosed with an MI or diabetes, I would have received much support, but with a "psyc" diagnosis, there is still a stigma - and once you've got it, you can't shake it. I can't even get a full time position, and this after 17 years of service! I get passed over for every position I apply for - yet I still get decent evals. I've given up.

Welcome to the club! Glad you are here. I could have written your story except that the med thing took forever to get the right combo. I had Stevens-Johnson syndrome with Lamictal, EPS on Lithium and now am pretty stable on Depakote and Neurontin, Bupropion, plus some Klonopin on occ. Doc also has me on Omega 3. I used to take fish oil and now use a combo Omega. Will change to plain 3 when I run out of present supply.

My BON asks if you have been treated within the past 2 years so I have to ans. yes and get the Psychiatrist to write a letter, as do I. It is not a problem. I found out that I really suffer from SAD and so sun light is a necessity. I use a full spectrum light.

I ended up retiring because of dx. Med changes were terrible while trying to work. I still am hypomanic much of the time. I can handle that better than the depression so am OK now.

I felt so good when I found out I could write about it here. Just writing it once did wonders for me.

I would be honest with BON. Depends how they ask the question. You may have to acknowledge to BON. Unfortunately the rest of the world is not quite so ready to hear about our MI. They enjoyed being able to talk about our ******* attitudes but usually can't deal with cause.

Best of luck.

Hello everyone!

I'm happy to find this little post as I am a nursing student and suffer from generalized anxiety disorder, major depression, as well as Bipolar type 2.

My school, in a way, knows of my diagnosis as I get assistance from the vocational rehabilitation office of my school. They essential pay for 1/2 my tuition in order for me to get my degree.

I had a mjor relapse in August of last year and ended up with a 3 day stay on the adult pysch ward of our local hospital. It was the best thing to happen to me because I found the best psychiatrist who has been a pleasure to work with. He always listens to me, and considers my feelings which is awesome. We did some med switching at the beginning of the year, and I have felt the best I have in years because of it.

I currently take Geodon, Effexor, Wellbutrin, lorazepam, and doxepin.

I'll read more through this thread later when I have time. Right now I have to shower and get ready for lab so I can do some test outs!!! EEEK!

Specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..

Nice to hear from everybody and welcome to new members! I am still job hunting. Scared to death my references may say too much (DON knows two of them personally) EEEK!

I'm fighting some demons now too. Hate this time of year as they all seem to come out. I really hate med changes as that screws me up too. Oh well I'll just have to try and "enjoy" the experience again.

Fuzzy

Specializes in Med surg, Critical Care, LTC.

Med changes can suck big time, however, they are usually a necessity. I nearly always end up missing some work when they do med changes. I either can't hold my head up at all, or if I can, my speech is slurred so I sound drunk. I try to change meds on my weekend off to see how it affects me, but even then it usually takes longer than a weekend to become accustomed to the new dosage. You'll find understanding here.

Specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..
I'm fighting some demons now too. Hate this time of year as they all seem to come out. I really hate med changes as that screws me up too. Oh well I'll just have to try and "enjoy" the experience again.

Fuzzy

"Enjoy". Aren't you funny :)

I have a hard time this time of year too. Maybe part of it is dread that oh no! I'm going to be home bound (due to the weather) soon! There is so much I wanted to do, I better do it now before the winter doldrums hit!

And right now I am dealing w/ a lot of fear about whether I can get another job - since I just bought a car in August! I yi yi! So I am eating a lot of junk I should not be eating (get hypoglycemic which causes anxiety, and being doped up on carbs makes me depressed, fat, disgusted...)

Med changes can suck big time, however, they are usually a necessity. I nearly always end up missing some work when they do med changes. I either can't hold my head up at all, or if I can, my speech is slurred so I sound drunk. I try to change meds on my weekend off to see how it affects me, but even then it usually takes longer than a weekend to become accustomed to the new dosage. You'll find understanding here.

HATE it. Yep I can sure relate. ((((((((Babs ))))))))

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