Nurses struggling with mental illness

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I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major co-morbid mental illness, Major depression/PTSD/DID, and have had many problems in my career. I have been in therapy and on meds for a long time and have worked very hard to be functional, and I have suprised myself by what I have been able to achieve. Currently, I am a hospice nurse in a residential setting and it seems that I have found my niche. It doesn't aggravate my illness too much. I am very busy at times and most of my job revolves in much cognitive thinking and decision making about the best ways to respond to a patient's emerging or existing symptoms, and in assessing patients to see where they are in the dying process, plus lots of educating to patients and families. My extensive personal trauma background has made me able to have a different perspective on death and don't see it as the scary thing that is SO SAD, that a lot of people do. Plus, because of the things that I have been through, I am more able to be compassionate and understanding of patients and their fears. I especially do well with patients with existing mental illness or lots of anxiety. I notice that a lot of nurses have little tolerance for a patients anxiety and are not willing to take the extra time to walk them through things and provide the extra reassurance that they need.

Yes, there are some nursing jobs that I don't think I would be able to do because of the fast on the spot life and death action necessary. ER and Trauma/Burn are pretty much out for me. But thats OK. A lot of nurses couldn't handle doing what I do either for their own reasons. We are all suited to certain things.

Having mental illness doesn't automatically make you unsuited for the nursing profession. Even though I have heard many times, "what are you doing here?" "Shouldn't you be doing something else, less stressful?"

I am here and am doing the thing I am suited for. Yes sometimes I have to take time off due to my illness, but its no different than somone who has flare ups of a chronic physical illness like lupus, chronic fatigue, or fibromyalgia.

I would like to know how other nurses have coped with their own illness and their nursing careers.

Severina

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One of the reasons I was more than happy to move south was that I also had some issues with SAD and even on meds, I would be in constant pain and my old doc would just prescribe opioid pain meds that just made me even more depressed. Glad I'm not predisposed to addiction, that's for sure (I'm always wary of taking any pain meds other than OTC unless I feel like I'm dying). It does get dark early down here in the winter but at least it's not always cloudy and grim. I feel for those of you suffering with SAD who are awaiting another winter. I know the last thing anyone of us wants to hear is "hang in there," but that's all that can come to my mind right now.

I've never really struggled w/ the S.A.D. as far as that goes - I can get depressed ANY old time!

As to the lights - some people can trigger mania by using them so be careful not to use them too much!

The best thing I found for SAD is the light. I used to poo-poo it until I got one. It makes sense. There is a great book about SAD. I think the name is "When Your Body Gets the Blues". It covers the carb craving and other things we do with lack of sunlight.

That said, I'm going south for the winter. Catch a few rays and eat healthy.

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The best thing I found for SAD is the light. I used to poo-poo it until I got one. It makes sense. There is a great book about SAD. I think the name is "When Your Body Gets the Blues". It covers the carb craving and other things we do with lack of sunlight.

That said, I'm going south for the winter. Catch a few rays and eat healthy.

(((((((aky ))))))))) thanks!

hi, i also suffer from major depression, bipolar and my depression has gotten worse as Ive gotten older, i fight suicidal thoughts everyday and i hate to say it but since ive been a nurse, i think that has also contributed to my depression....glad to hear u are doing well as I am the opposite:) Im trying to stay strong for my 5 kids but Im not working trying to find a job and I can;t....i am alos getting ready to have my house foreclosed on and all i have are my kids,,,,

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hi, i also suffer from major depression, bipolar and my depression has gotten worse as Ive gotten older, i fight suicidal thoughts everyday and i hate to say it but since ive been a nurse, i think that has also contributed to my depression....glad to hear u are doing well as I am the opposite:) Im trying to stay strong for my 5 kids but Im not working trying to find a job and I can;t....i am alos getting ready to have my house foreclosed on and all i have are my kids,,,,

It's good to see you here tiak! Boy keeping my sanity with ONE kid in tow was hard enough - 5 - well, you are entitled to a little insanity ;) -

Hope that you find a job that fits you real soon! hand in there and keep checking in!

Hi, tonight I am really struggling with my depression. DH is very depressed as part of his planned withdrawal from Oxcontin following surg. He had been on it for awhile before surg.

He keeps telling me he feels like taking a gun to his head due to the nightmares. I can't convince him to do anything like talk to someone other than me. I have practically begged him to talk to his doctor.

I know about boundaries and try hard to not enable him. I am just having a tough time and needed to vent.

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Hi, tonight I am really struggling with my depression. DH is very depressed as part of his planned withdrawal from Oxcontin following surg. He had been on it for awhile before surg.

He keeps telling me he feels like taking a gun to his head due to the nightmares. I can't convince him to do anything like talk to someone other than me. I have practically begged him to talk to his doctor.

I know about boundaries and try hard to not enable him. I am just having a tough time and needed to vent.

Rr, grr, hate when people do that. Like I'm the ONLY person they feel safe talking to - but if something should go wrong (and it probably won't but that is what the fear is!) it is all on me? No thank you. I don't let people do that to me anymore no matter how much I love them.

Just keep telling him "that's just the withdrawal talking." Sound like a broken record about it because it is true. Say it very simply but over and over. And also tell them you love them and you really wish you could make it better but you can't. And be sincere.

Oh I know you are sincere! But it is also very wearing when someone else is in distress especially when I feel just as powerless or overwhelmed!

Now are they being medically managed during withdrawal or doing it on their own? Because that is definitely not recommended!

I feel bad for you :( Not much you can do though especially if he won't get any other help, all the two of you can do is wait it out.

Make sure he has NO PLAN. FEELINGs are NOT FACTs. Remind him of this too, often.

Hang in there. xo

Fortunately he is being medically managed. I don't actually think he will do anything, but it wears. I tell him all the things you mentioned, and I do really appreciate that you remind me I am saying the right things.

It will still be a few weeks before he is completely off and I tend to become stupid and not stay in today. Just can't imagine being in this spot for weeks. I find I struggle with my own depression. I am rarely working and yesterday I worked 10 hours. I came home tired. I immediately heard about the gun thing. I declined to work today because he asked me not to. I am OK with that but know we will need the $ this winter.

He has been out of work due to the need for surg and then post op. We will be moving as soon as he is drug free.

Thanks for your response. It really helped.

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Fortunately he is being medically managed. I don't actually think he will do anything, but it wears. I tell him all the things you mentioned, and I do really appreciate that you remind me I am saying the right things.

It will still be a few weeks before he is completely off and I tend to become stupid and not stay in today. Just can't imagine being in this spot for weeks. I find I struggle with my own depression. I am rarely working and yesterday I worked 10 hours. I came home tired. I immediately heard about the gun thing. I declined to work today because he asked me not to. I am OK with that but know we will need the $ this winter.

He has been out of work due to the need for surg and then post op. We will be moving as soon as he is drug free.

Thanks for your response. It really helped.

(((((((((AKY ))))))))

Just try not to call yourself stupid too often, and you will be fine :)

HANG IN and vent away, anytime! Praying the time goes quickly and that he's on the mend soon - AND YOU TOO! xo

Thought I would check in. Things are better with DH. and I am back to living in today. TG. I did talk to my shrink and she increased my antidepressant. I can't take the increase it makes me shake and get too much anxiety. I am doing better though, I think the gun thing was the final straw and now both of us are on the mend.

I keep my eyes on the prize, getting to better weather.

Thanks for the support. It was just what I needed. It is nice remembering that I am not stupid, I just get frustrated and need to slow down my mind.

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Thought I would check in. Things are better with DH. and I am back to living in today. TG. I did talk to my shrink and she increased my antidepressant. I can't take the increase it makes me shake and get too much anxiety. I am doing better though, I think the gun thing was the final straw and now both of us are on the mend.

I keep my eyes on the prize, getting to better weather.

Thanks for the support. It was just what I needed. It is nice remembering that I am not stupid, I just get frustrated and need to slow down my mind.

PHEW I'm glad :D

Keep checking in! I am up late so I have to go - but I will be around - take care and I am so happy things are better for you. :yeah:

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