So I finished monitoring- 5 years of this and one day (my discharge date) I could not log in, later that day I received a letter stating I was complete. I hadn't been tested in a couple of weeks. So just like that, no drama- this whole thing turned into a weird dream. I still have the feeling of being watched, even after 2 weeks in Europe on an island (I celebrated by going as far away as I could). I'll probably not be posting as much anymore, but thanks to the group for being one of my sources of strength!