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If you will be taking NCLEX and would like to be prayed for, can we start a fourm for this. I know that some folks are not into prayer and I don't want to offend anyone, but I sure need it!
That was very encouraging."Give thanks unto the Lord, for He is good: for his mercy endureth for ever" - Psalm 107:1I just want to say that GOD is awesome! Finally passed after the 3rd time with 265 questions with the mercy of my living GOD. If GOD is with me, I know He will be with you too. I am writing this particularly for the re-takers. Don't ever give up hope. This NCLEX exam has really changed my life tremendously and this is my story: please read & it will change your life too....
I graduated from nursing school last year, May 2007 with a BSN. Right after I graduated, I was offered to work at a nearby hospital and so I did. But within 6 months they wanted me to take the boards, so I went in last October and took it. 2 days later, found out that I failed. My school was ranked as 90% of Nclex passing rate and that's the main reason I went there. Until I took the exam, I realized that I had no knowledge of anything in regards to nursing. Basically I did 4 yrs of college for nothing except add some loans in to my head. I know a lot of people in this site disagree with me in regards to my experience, but I am telling u from my own experiences and from my classmates. Last October I found out that our school ranked 64% of nclex passing.
Anyways, I really put my hope in to nursing and when I found out that I failed, all my hopes were destroyed. Right after I failed, I informed my supervisor and left the job and started studying again. This is where my life slowly started to change in my own eyes.
My parents are not well educated but work 2 jobs to support my family esp. my father. So when he found out about this, he realized that his suffering will never be over so he began to take it on me. My mom on the other hand hurts me everyday with words and puts me down. All of my relatives are either nurses or doctors and they all began to criticize me behind my back. My community began to talk behind my back and began to put pressure on my parents to get me married. All of my friends are either married & have kids or have a career. Me on the other hand was left with nothing basically except load of loans.
I began to get depressed, started cutting people from my life, moved in with my brother and felt like I was the only one in this world who is not smart, and felt like a looser. I slowly decided to end my life. I felt like I wasn't welcomed anywhere not even in my home or with my parents. Everyday I lived with criticism in my life from everybody. But GOD was watching me...
Finally decided to take the boards in February and again came to find out that I failed. Now my parents began to hate me even more. Their words and actions would put a hole in to my heart each day. I figured I'll look for a job, but no one wants me b/c I graduated and they feared what If I leave the job. So I basically had no life, no job, no career, no support, no parents (literally), no social life (friends), except left with my small bedroom, a computer and few NCLEX-RN review books & cds. I was depressed more and more and wanted to die. I have tried so many times to kill my self but HE was watching me... There was not even a single day where I went to sleep with out my eyes pouring out.
Finally, In April, I put the TV on a Sunday morning and watched pastor Joel Osteen's preaching. To be honest with you, I'm a Christian but not God's child. On that Sunday morning, Pastor Joel preached saying, "you're not a victim but you're a victor, and said that, "GOD has greater plans stored, but all I need is to bring him in my life."
After that, I fasted for over 30 days, and finally decided to take the boards with my friends in May 15th. I began to meditate on His words and humbled myself.
GOD began to answer my prayers slowly. A week before my exam, I got a call from a nearby Hospital offering me a Nurse Tech position and I accepted it and decided to change the boards date. So my friends went to take it and they came home really feeling good that they passed and even I thought they passed. But 2 days later, I found out that they both failed. They both are very smart, studied day & night for this exam. When I heard this, I thought to myself, if they couldn't do it, how will I? I was very disappointed.
So I went to work and finally decided to take the boards in July. To be honest with you, I prayed to GOD so much, put all of my hope & strength in Him and told Him, I cannot pass this exam with my knowledge, but I know I could conqueror anything with YOU in my life and went to take the exam.
For the second break during my exam after 200 ?s, I went into bathroom and cried to GOD,. I came out of that exam knowing that I failed 100%. I thought this time, I had the craziest questions and there is no way I can pass this exam.
2 days later, I went to the computer and checked my name, and my name didn't appear and right away I knew I failed. My parents were very disappointed again and told me to go for LPN. So I began to do the application for that and my father called his supervisor and she offered him a book for RN & LPN. After the exam, I would wait everyday for my Failure note with my ugly picture. Last Friday, I gave my father $200 to pay off the mortgage and he threw that check right in front of the table and said, I only asked you one thing and that is to get that license and if you can't do that, then I don't want anything. I told him, what if GOD doesn't want me to be an RN. He said, there is no such thing like that. So I replied to him, do you think I take the exam and say to myself, I want to fail so that we all can be disappointed & waste $. No, I want to be an RN as badly as you want. I cried so much with my whole heart and prayed to GOD. I went to shopping right after that just to get my mind of with my mother. When I came home, I found a big envelop in front of my storm door. I thought it was for my dad, but when I saw it was for me, I was like yeah what ever. but when I opened it, It was my RN license. I praised GOD for seeing my tears for over a year. I took that license and woke my father up and threw it back at him and said: here, this is what you wanted right, take it."
My GOD has turned my tears into joy and I am always grateful. He heard my cries, he saw my tears. GOD turned my life completely just from this stupid NCLEX. Because of this exam, not only, I got closer to HIM, but also got to learn how His wonderful works are in my life. I could have died by now, but HE kept me safe. God has added more years into my life and I can feel HIM all the time with me. Not only that, now have I called my self that I am HIS child. In Isaiah 55:8: MY thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways." And He definitely did his ways and I praise HIM for that. (When things are impossible for men, nothing is impossible for GOD b/c everything is possible for HIM)
So to the failures, I know what you're going through because I was in your shoes once but don't ever give hope. I used to come into this site and read everyone's passing notes and failure notes and hoped one day I'll be able to come in here and encourage others and guess what, GOD has been so good.
"Seek ye first the kingdom of GOD, and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you." - Mathew 6:33 (God didn't just say, seek my kingdom, but he also said, his righteousness too and all things shall be added.) Isn't GOD amazing? He provided the greatest miracle in my life and I know he can do to yours, just submit your life to HIM and He will take you to places where you never dreamed off!
What I tried to study: basically everything
First I knew from my 3rd experience, I had to have GOD first, b/c If I didn't, I knew I would've been a failure again.
Secondly, do questions after questions, I used Kaplan, ready to pass, online random questions, postings from fellow exam takers in here, Feur review books and CDs, DVDs, you name it, all of them I used. Study atleast 3-4 hours a day and forget about what other think of you or say about you, just give yourself to the Lord and study and HE will take care of the rest.
GOOD luck to all of you guys, and NEVER GIVE UP!!!
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hey everyone, i found out today that i passed!! thank you everyone for your prayers and support, god is good:yeah: