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I am applying to the local hospital shortly and I am pretty sure I will get the job. I know that sounds bold or maybe arrogant but it appears they really need nurses AND I have several contacts in their organization who worked with me while I assumed a private duty nursing role (POA) over a 3 month period as my father died from cancer. One contacted me yesterday to ask if I would be interested in taking on a bedside nursing role. I am extremely grateful for the care he received through this facility and had nothing but exceptional interactions with HC staff as I was advocating for him. I really don't want to screw this up. This opportunity is a dream for me.
Here's the problem:
I was re-diagnosed (as an adult) with ADHD about a year and a half ago and have been taking prescribed stimulants (amphetamine salts) daily since. Due to this new opportunity, I have been taking breaks consisting of 2-5 days from my medication to see how it alters my functioning and also performing at-home urine drug screens. They are urine screens and function just as an OTC pregnancy test would. After one day, it's been showing to be out of my system. The days off are OK but my productivity and attention are definitely messy (exacerbated by full-time mom duties with a toddler).
Reflecting on my practice in the specialty I have chosen, I definitely don't see how my diagnosis (while I was un-medicated) could have ever negatively impacted my patients. However, it has induced a great deal of anxiety for me because I have felt as if I have to work harder than my colleagues often. I worked for years without medication but have yet to return to my specialty medicated. I am TERRIFIED about the drug test! I wish to keep my diagnosis private from my employer. I also want to avoid opening pandora's box and potentially be at the mercy of the BON. Any advice and/or experiences in this matter?
Greatly appreciated!!
J