Since getting my RN over 2 yrs ago I have become a royal you know what. I actually had a reputation for being laid back before that and as an LPN. You know ducks back and all that.
Now watch out. And you have seen it several times on this board.
I really don't like myself this way. I know too much to place blame outside of myself, such as blaming it on the stress of being an RN.
It is all under my control and I have let my life in general become a knee jerk reaction to my enviorment. I am working on this. I know it doesn't seem like it. Heck it doesn't seem like it to me and I know I am.
It is really tough. I guess I have gotten into this habit too deeply and it is tough to break.
I do a LOT of blaming these days, criticizing, whining, you name it. I know my attitude is mine and it is everything.
Please, don't come back with hugs and warm fuzzies. That is not what I need right now. I just needed to express this. I am not even sure why. Sometimes it just helps to get it out. Good old venting. Sheees! now I am venting about my venting.