Help! I am absolutely freaking out now. I am a recovering alcoholic and have been without a drink for 4 1/2 years. In those years AA and my higher power has provided me with multiple blessings. I had previously surrendered my LPN lic due to my drinking. In sobriety I joined PNAP and after 3 years of following their program flawlessly I was able to have my lic re-instated under a DMU contract. During this time I went back to school and just graduated as an RN, I passed my boards and was blessed with a job in a D&A facility that is sympathetic to my 6 month narcotics restrictions. Everything has been wonderful in my life...then I made the poor decision to take one of my dog's tramadols due to stomach cramps. I honestly don't know what I was thinking...how could I have been so careless. I am devestated and terrified! I recieved a phone call from my PNAP case manager today and I told her what I did. She said I needed to stop work immediately and that I will have to send a letter to the BON and wait to see if my lic will be suspended for another 3 years. I am feeling suidical right now and scared to death. I keep asking myself how could I have been so stupid and careless. I know better! I am praying they will consider extending my DMU agreement and allow me to go back to work in a timely matter. My boss was very kind and said she will hold my job, she knows I am relieable and I never gave her a reason to doubt me. Has anyone out there been in a similar situation? If so, what was the outcome? I have not told my family yet, they are going to be devestated, I just need to know if I should just get out of this field. I can't go unemployed for another 3 years. I am very grateful that this hasn't made me want to pick up a drink, for me that would ensure death, but I am so upset. Thanks in advance for any advice.