Hi all...
I have recently started a new job as an NP, my first real one as an NP, not to be confused with that last disaster during which I was a student.
I love, love, LOVE this job. However, I am not too certain that it loves me back. I work for a cardiology practice, and the biggest part of my job is supposed to be stress tests, followed by helping with the consults and just basic "whatever I can to to make it easier on the docs". I lack about 2 1/2 weeks before I complete my 90 days. Prior to this, my only cardiology experience was a clinical rotation with my personal cardiologist.
Here's the problem. I work with two docs. The one I posted about in "He Wouldn't Let Me Go" has left. One doc is the Director of Cardiology for the hospital. I can not get a bead on him. There are days that I think he likes me fine, and days where I think he thinks I'm the village idiot. He prefers to do his own consults, which is fine by me, I just put a note in the chart if I arrive before him, so that admin knows someone from the practice has been by. He also has said that I am not quite ready to stress by myself yet, and I am unsure why. He's a great guy to work for, but I guess I'm intimidated. He will ask me questions at times about the cases we have, and I feel like a total dummy for not getting them right. He likes to teach, and I am thankful for that, and he has the patience of Job.
The other doc is great as well. I am more than free to do the consults for him, dictate, write orders, the whole nine. I can not stress for him alone yet, either, because the head guy has not said OK.
I know I'm new, and maybe I am paranoid. No one has said boo to me about doing anything wrong, which I'm not used to, after that last fiasco. I really want to stay here, and everyone says I am doing fine, or I'd know about it. The OM says that the head guy told her when they decided to hire me that he knew it would be about 6 months to get me up to speed. I just don't feel like I'm helping or earning my keep, and I want to.
So, what to do? Besides Ativan? I have toyed with the notion that I should just ask one day if I can run a stress and him watch, to prove I can do it. Is that too forward? I am so not comfortable with making the call on meds on new patients yet, but I can usually order the correct tests, something that I was not able to do when I started, so there IS improvement. I guess I just want some reassurance that I'm OK, just a case of the new-job heebie-jeebies. DH said that I was so used to being yelled at and micromanaged that I didn't know how to act now that I was not. Maybe he has a point.
Thanks in advance, all.