Where do begin? I have been an LPN for 1 year in 2 months and unfortunately during this period I have had 5! nursing jobs. yes 5.
(1) I started off in a nursing home, just to find my niche I didn't like it but I needed a form of income and I needed some experience in the field. Two months in the DON called me and said, he thinks that its best that he let me go. He didn't give me a specific reason, but during my orientation the nurses that trained me had to evaluate how I was doing, so I assumed that did not do well during orientation. Like I said, I did not like the nursing home, I had 30-32 patients to care for and I just did not feel safe nor happy.
(2) My second job was in a pediatric home health, I was working for a family and one of the orders called for me to put cotton ball in the little boy's ears as he had surgery 2 days before. Well, I did put cotton ball in my patient ear but I had soaked and drained it with H.Peroxide. Well, the next day the family called the agency and said I put a wet cotton ball in the boys ears. The order stated for me to cleaned around the boy's ear with a cotton tip and H.peroxide and then placed a cotton ball in his ear. My mistake was I misunderstood what the outgoing nurse was telling me before she left about the patient new orders. My fault. It was a med error and the agency said I cannot work for them unless I complete a med error CEU. I never completed it, so never went back to work for them. Although, 6 months later they were still calling me to come work for them because they need nurses so bad. I didn't the patients they assign me usually live 45-50 minutes away and I just couldn't put myself through that again.
(3) My third job was a nursing home again. This lasted a month and a few weeks. I mentioned that I do not like the nursing home. I don't. But my mom work in this particular nursing home and she gave told the DON about me. Well, since my mom has been there for 5 years and a good worker they hired me. Well, I had so much patient work load that I did not do my treatments, although I charted that I did. This led to me having a meeting with the DON and 4 other people in administration. I was so nervous at that meeting that I told myself that I never want to be in such a position again. I felt humiliated, embarrassed, and just incompetent as a nurse. I was first suspended, but then let go. They informed me that they would report me to the BON. well it's been 8 months, have not gotten anything from the BON and I've checked my license online and it says I'm in good standing no complaints.
(4) My fourth job was at a pediatric clinic. i did not like it much as I felt I was losing many of my skills. I mostly gave immunizations to babies and worked on the doctor's schedule for the week. I worked there for 4 months but then i had to leave due to the fact that I started an RN program and the schedule would conflict with my work schedule. The manager loved me, got great reviews from them. I still felt bad though due to my recent firing. My self esteem just plummeted and Im still feeling like somethings wrong with me. Anyways, I did not get fired from this job, I left due to school.
(5) I am currently working for 2 agencies. one is a pediatric agency and the other is a pediatric and adult agency. Well, yesterday I got fired from the pediatric agency. The reason is I document that I left at my scheduled time when in reality I left 30 minutes early three time. Did I think they would find out? yeah. Did I think it was an issue. I did. I literally cannot figure out any reason as to why I charted that I left at 0700 when in reality I left at 0630. At the other agency I work for, one of the parents always let me leave early and she said I can still write down the time I left as the time I was scheduled. in my head, I started to think it was no longer a big deal so i did it with this agency. I know in nursing school they teach us not to do this, I hate that I'm not abiding by the things that I was taught in school and letting others influence my judgement. I knew it was a big deal and I did it anyway. I'm sure the other nurses that work with the pediatric/adult agency leave early but chart their scheduled time cause the guardian (mom) said its ok. Anyways, got called into the office today and I was let go. It is considered insurance fraud. in total I lied and said I worked 1 hour and 30 minutes. The DON were saying that the insurance company might not think its a big deal they might just say "oh, its only 1 hour and let it go. they do not think that I was trying to be malicious. but they have to report it to the BON. Two of the times I left, the patient had an appointment in the morning so he had to leave at 0530 but I charted that I left at 0600. the other time I left early is when I emailed the agency saying that I can now work 12 hours form 7pm-7am. well it wasn't suppose to start that particular week, but the following cause I have nursing clinical in the morning. Hence I left at 0630 but charted i left at 7. The DON was saying it all depends on how the BON choose to handle it.
I do not know what's wrong with me. I've never been fired before until I started nursing. I'm a few months from graduating an RN program and I still cannot get my act together. I want to treat this as a lesson learned. I'm feeling stupid cause I've been fired so many times. I'm still working for the pediatric/adult agency but I am going to chart the correct time that I leave, at the end of the day the I have to protect my license no one else. Does anyone know how long it will take for the BON to contact me? will they make a big deal over 1 hour and 30 minutes? My first year of nursing was rough. I take full responsibility. I am so embarrassed that I created another account to write this although my other account is not even lay real name. I need to remember all the handwork I put in into obtaining my license and not let it go so easily. What's wrong with me? I just do not think that I am learning from my mistakes as a normal human being would.
Specializes in Cardiology, School Nursing, General.
Not really a nurse, but CMA. And I thought I was having a bad 1st year out of school. I got fired of two of my jobs: one was because someone went through my emails at work and found I was looking for another job and told. And the other was because I wasn't cut out of the job, they fired me after a week. But I know what I did wrong and kept on going, eventually found a job as medical aide at a public charter school.
But even with my mistakes, yours sound really bad. I mean even in our classes, we were taught not to falsify documents and document everything to CYA! I mean, what you explained, you sound like me, being immature and thinking I got it made, "Once I have my CMA, I will always have a job and it would be easy!" but no! I learned the hard way that you are never permanent and you can be replaced, no matter how long you are there. That's why you have to prove your worth at work, you can never have your guard down. You were taught about documenting, you can't say you didn't know.
I seriously hope you do better. But it sounds like maybe nursing it's not for you. But if you are seriously adamant to keep going, learn your mistakes and don't do it again.
I did, and now I'm always being praised at work for being a hard worker.
Specializes in M/S, LTC, Corrections, PDN & drug rehab.
I wonder about you also !!!!
ummmm...I really don't like to judge anyone and bullying is not in my interest.
However, I think you get a kick out of bullying....
This girl needs some coaching and she is well over her head....people like you are just so darn worried about competition instead of helping her... she apparently knows what she's done wrong
She made a mistake by coming to this forum to look for any support
so....keep it up...condemn the world, think we are all dishonest...etc....you have a problem !!!
No, you have a problem. Multiple, experienced nurses/posters have all agreed that was she did was irrehensible. It's not like she had two patients with the same last name & mixed up meds, that is an accident. What she did was malicious & with purpose. Not only that, she did it repeatedly & lost jobs because of it! Anyone who thinks that the OP made a "mistake", didn't mean to harm anyone, etc. needs to reevaluate their thought process & I question their integrity as a nurse/human.
I also fully agree with everything Wuzzie said. Why is being honest/different/etc bullying or wrong? The OP needs to know the truth, no just be given a pat on the back & not to worry about anything. She is taking care of PEOPLE! Why should anyone receive subpar care? I'd be furious if I heard that happened to a loved one. But it's ok that she did it because they are unknown to you? That makes me ill.
Let me tell a story. I went through an LVN program with this girl, we'll call her June. A few years later June & I would be taking our last pre-req to apply to our local BSN program. During the summer class June asked to copy off me, constantly was late to class AND was on her phone most of class (she got offended when I asked her to put her phone away too). So after the summer class ended we both applied to the BSN program. She got in & I didn't. I was pissed because I knew she didn't deserve to get in.
Later on I found out she got in trouble with our BON for lying to them. They put stipulations against her LVN license AND her RN permit. It has been 2 years since that happened & she never took the boards to become an RN. I don't know what she is up as she refuses to talk to me, but clearly she isn't working as an RN. Any person who lies in the nursing world should not be a nurse. She wasted her time, money & energy completing pre reqs & the BSN program. Not only that, she took a spot away from who deserved it more than her.
So I ask you, is lying/stealing/commuting fraud worth it? Lie in your personal life when it won't get you in trouble. But you lie as a nurse & you're only asking for trouble. June is lucky nothing more happened to her!
ummmm...I really don't like to judge anyone and bullying is not in my interest.
However, I think you get a kick out of bullying....
This girl needs some coaching and she is well over her head....people like you are just so darn worried about competition instead of helping her... she apparently knows what she's done wrong
She made a mistake by coming to this forum to look for any support
so....keep it up...condemn the world, think we are all dishonest...etc....you have a problem !!!
The OP truly needed to hear the opinions of her colleagues about her performance...to see if the majority of us who hold no stakes whatsoever in her success or failure as a nurse (or person) support the actions levied upon her.
Hopefully this is her wake-up call because we all know that her actions could mean jail time for her or death for an innocent patient.
She painted a picture of herself that deserves no sugar-coating. She possibly was enabled to continue the list of things she did because some made light of her situation early on in these practices.
She knows what is acceptable nursing practice because she graduated from nursing school and demonstrated that knowledge during the NCLEX. But as a person, she decided against doing what was morally right, not once or twice, but numerous times.
In doing so, she disrespected and humiliated herself, disregarded the teachings and trainings of this profession, and just really gave one employer her a** to kiss when they offered a possible 2-hour solution to help correct months of destructive behavior.
In that sense, in layman's terms specifically intended for this particular OP, when you do what you do, you get what you get. She is choosing to burn bridges at the expense of past, present, and future patients.
No sympathy here...that time has passed, and probably backfired on the ones who offered it...by the looks of things.
I don't feel that the OP came here to hear how terrible her actions are/were - she has come right out and said it herself.
I have to give her credit for that! I see no point in more than 8 pages of responses to her original post, telling her what she
already knows and/or has said about herself.
I feel OP came here for help and I think a good start would be to speak with a counselor. I'm not going to sit here and tear her apart saying how terrible her actions were - she already knows that.
We all have our opinions - this is mine, period. I, in no way am condoning her actions or bad choices - rather, much like a patient who needs my help - I am trying to direct her for professional help.
It's the BON's job to discipline her - and I'm sure they will. My sitting here telling her how bad she is and how awful her actions were is not going to change the past. My hopes are for OP's future choices and that she makes the correct decisions as to her future in Nursing or possibly a different path. With the aid of a psychologist - I am hoping she is able to make a good decision in regards to her career choices.
You're a little late to the party with your suggestion to seek professional help. I think that was first mentioned in the second reply and many others after so your view that there have been 8 pages of blasting the OP is a bit skewed. I think what's really gotten the ire of people here is, despite what you think, the OP has not once expressed remorse for what she did to the patients she did not provide nursing care to. Indeed she has mentioned that she thinks she might be a bad nurse and that she wants to get better which is why in a previous post I let her know that I don't think she's a lost cause. But her general attitude has been rather flippant and excuse riddled. I mean really? She didn't follow the rules because she's never had to follow rules before? Not only that but she has not really addressed the multiple times we have suggested counseling which makes one wonder if she truly wants to do the work necessary to bring about positive changes in her life. What I'm not hearing from her is an action plan for moving forward. That frustrates me to no end. So many times on this site we get posters who come to tell their tales of self-imposed woe and when they don't get the head-patting "there-theres" they think they deserve they either fly off the handle or disappear into the ether. Many of us experienced nurses spend a lot of our time crafting carefully worded responses to both admonish and encourage those who stray off the path of honesty, integrity and ethical practice only to be met with vitriol and cries of "bully". It's getting old.
Specializes in M/S, LTC, Corrections, PDN & drug rehab.
I don't feel that the OP came here to hear how terrible her actions are/were - she has come right out and said it herself.
I have to give her credit for that! I see no point in more than 8 pages of responses to her original post, telling her what she
already knows and/or has said about herself.
I feel OP came here for help and I think a good start would be to speak with a counselor. I'm not going to sit here and tear her apart saying how terrible her actions were - she already knows that.
We all have our opinions - this is mine, period. I, in no way am condoning her actions or bad choices - rather, much like a patient who needs my help - I am trying to direct her for professional help.
It's the BON's job to discipline her - and I'm sure they will. My sitting here telling her how bad she is and how awful her actions were is not going to change the past. My hopes are for OP's future choices and that she makes the correct decisions as to her future in Nursing or possibly a different path. With the aid of a psychologist - I am hoping she is able to make a good decision in regards to her career choices.
Get help? No no no. She just wanted a pat & to be told everything is ok. I think if she wanted help she would've asked for it the first time she fired for falsifying medical records, or the second or the third. But she hasn't. If she hasn't changed or looked for help yet, it looks very doubtful she will in the future.
All her posts are me me me. Did she ever say how bad she felt stealing from the company or putting her patients at harm? Never. Not once. I think that says a lot.
I suggested, in my first post, that she seek help. But after reading all her comments on this post I can clearly see she doesn't give a rat's butt. She says she feels bad but I sense she is telling us what we want to hear. On top of that she makes a million excuses for her bad behavior.
Plus everything that Wuzzie said, I agree 150% with what she said.
Either this is the usual inaugural troll post as an attempt to get us all arguing with each other, or this is a person with a serious personality disorder. She (?) could get counseling to resolve her issues but that will probably come too late to save her license. The Board weeds out those folks who really should not be nurses.
Specializes in CCU, SICU, CVSICU, Precepting & Teaching.
I wonder about you also !!!!
ummmm...I really don't like to judge anyone and bullying is not in my interest.
However, I think you get a kick out of bullying....
This girl needs some coaching and she is well over her head....people like you are just so darn worried about competition instead of helping her... she apparently knows what she's done wrong
She made a mistake by coming to this forum to look for any support
so....keep it up...condemn the world, think we are all dishonest...etc....you have a problem !!!
As nurses, we have to judge another nurse's behavior if that behavior is endangering patients. We don't have to judge the PERSON, but the behavior of the OP puts patients seriously at risk. Would you still have the same "that's OK" attitude if it were YOUR mother or child she was taking care of, documenting that treatments were done without bothering to do them? Would it still be OK if YOU were the patient?
The OP apparently knows what she'd done wrong; yet she did it anyway. Not just once, but over and over again. As a nurse, that should NEVER be OK.
Apparently you have no idea what constitutes bullying, but just throw the word around when you don't like what someone else has to say. This forum could give you a lot of insight and good advice, if you open your mind and pay attention to it. Newsflash: condemning someone's deliberate dishonesty, fraudulent charting and lack of conscience is not bullying. If you think it is, then your issues are just as potentially serious as those of the OP. I sincerely hope you get straightened out before you go near a patient!
Specializes in M/S, LTC, Corrections, PDN & drug rehab.
As nurses, we have to judge another nurse's behavior if that behavior is endangering patients. We don't have to judge the PERSON, but the behavior of the OP puts patients seriously at risk. Would you still have the same "that's OK" attitude if it were YOUR mother or child she was taking care of, documenting that treatments were done without bothering to do them? Would it still be OK if YOU were the patient?
The OP apparently knows what she'd done wrong; yet she did it anyway. Not just once, but over and over again. As a nurse, that should NEVER be OK.
Apparently you have no idea what constitutes bullying, but just throw the word around when you don't like what someone else has to say. This forum could give you a lot of insight and good advice, if you open your mind and pay attention to it. Newsflash: condemning someone's deliberate dishonesty, fraudulent charting and lack of conscience is not bullying. If you think it is, then your issues are just as potentially serious as those of the OP. I sincerely hope you get straightened out before you go near a patient!
I have been an LPN for 1 year in 2 months and unfortunately during this period I have had 5! nursing jobs. yes 5. 
Amethya
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Not really a nurse, but CMA. And I thought I was having a bad 1st year out of school. I got fired of two of my jobs: one was because someone went through my emails at work and found I was looking for another job and told. And the other was because I wasn't cut out of the job, they fired me after a week. But I know what I did wrong and kept on going, eventually found a job as medical aide at a public charter school.
But even with my mistakes, yours sound really bad. I mean even in our classes, we were taught not to falsify documents and document everything to CYA! I mean, what you explained, you sound like me, being immature and thinking I got it made, "Once I have my CMA, I will always have a job and it would be easy!" but no! I learned the hard way that you are never permanent and you can be replaced, no matter how long you are there. That's why you have to prove your worth at work, you can never have your guard down. You were taught about documenting, you can't say you didn't know.
I seriously hope you do better. But it sounds like maybe nursing it's not for you. But if you are seriously adamant to keep going, learn your mistakes and don't do it again.
I did, and now I'm always being praised at work for being a hard worker.