Ugh the last two weeks have been CRAP!!! But, some good has come of it. I'll share some good, bad, and ugly.
This week, I have learned:
1. Lexapro is a hell of a drug.
2. My body will crash my brain after 7 days of insomnia, and I will hallucinate by day 10.
3. My spouse has the patience of a saint.
4. The kickback of a gun is nowhere near as forceful as it looks.
5. I'm good at shooting!
6. I may or may not have a job right now.
7. I never expected to feel so indifferent regarding my employment status. It feels revealing to me to realize how unattached I feel to it. Maybe my dislike for it has really grown that much.
8. I feel like the Boy Child has suddenly grown more mature and its freaking me out a little. I know he's in the pre-teen zone, but I'm not ready for this. I find myself checking in on him often and smothering him with mama love just to make sure my boy is still my boy. *sigh* This poor child is stuck with me.
9. If you tell them to stop building....
They will.
(I find this hilarious to an inappropriate degree.)
10. The A-Hole Dog only likes the dog park if she's on her leash. She also acts like she feels incredibly violated when another dog sniffs her butt.
11. Go to the following thread. Go to top comments, find on page, type "Robb Stark". Only do this if you are caught up on GOT. Also, only do this if you are not offended by politics, and if you do not plan in any way to come back here and blast me for sharing a comment that compares Trump to Joffrey and Balon Greyjoy.
12. I like my ellipses with 4 dots, just like I like my lights (THERE ARE FOUR LIGHTS!!!!). Farawyn, we can take this outside if you want....
13. The spouse and I owe so much money in taxes that I can't even. We changed exemptions when we got blasted by state last year. Didn't matter. We owe thousands to federal and the state we live in. As in, we owe thousands to federal and thousands more to state. Can't wait to see how much the state I work in swindled. I swear to the Bearded Commander Riker that we had more money on one crappy income than we have now, with me working, too. Maybe I need to not work during grad school. :\
14. I am so excited for grad school!!!
I know I'm forgetting stuff. Boo! I'll remember right after the edit window closes, I'm sure!
YES...I am currently tapering off of Cymbalta by removing beads. It's the bead method. The withdrawal side effects are horrible. I do it slowly enough to help with the side effects. I still feel some emotional/mood changes for a couple days, but then I adjust.
Ughh cymbalta... I had to do the bead method too. Horrible horrible side effects. The brain zaps felt like my aura before a seizure. It was the first time I had heard it described and could say, yes omg yes that is what it is!
My husband thinks I should just tell my employer I'm bipolar. No no no. I've tried to explain to him the stigma with mental illness but he says eff it!
I have no problem telling my employer I have epilepsy but I would *never* tell them I'm bipolar!
I was scared to death to tell mine I had epilepsy after the crap I got in school about it. Turns out I had an awesome employer and a crappy school! I don't have bipolar so I can't relate, but if they were accepting of the epilepsy I would think they would be of they bipolar. People still have a stigma against epilepsy so if they got past that I bet they could get past bipolar.
Hugs to you too. I hear you! When I went to get a physical for my new job they asked what meds I take & I gave them the list. Then the doctor was talking to me & didn't seem too thrilled that I would be working because I have epilepsy and I'm bipolar. I'm like, there goes THAT job.
I had to get approval from 3 different docs to be allowed to work while having a dx of epilepsy, depression, and anxiety.
Recently my thyroid has been acting up and my doc increased the dosage. Retested and the tsh was even higher so she increased the dose and changed the med. It worked too well. I didn't sleep for 3 days, heart pounding, etc hyperthroid symptoms. I was at work and had a seizure due to lack of sleep from the thyroid meds. It took 20 mg of ambien and mltiple dose of ativan to calm me down enough to sleep. I finally slept and could go home. My point is, my employer is awesome about it. I just had to take the rest of the week off to get my Thyroid figure out and sleep. If you are applying for or are already in a job where you feel like you are going to be fired based on your disability then that job doesn't deserve you.
It took 20 mg of ambien and mltiple dose of ativan to calm me down enough to sleep.
Holy crap. That's 4 times the daily dose of Ambien (for women), plus Ambien and benzos hit the same receptor in your brain. That's a whole lot of GABA. Glad it worked, but damn.
I think people may be more accepting of thyroid dysfunction because it has a medical cause they're comfortable with. If the cause of your sleeplessness were six inches higher suddenly people get weird. But you're absolutely right, people shouldn't have to walk on egg shells.
That has happened countless times to me. Don't let it get to you.
I'm not. I just wish they would have momentarily considered my application.
Must be a terrible place to work and a job you didn't want anyway, if they can't find anyone to fill the position.
Thanks, Dogen. Well, they are apparently known for a terrible ER, but the facility itself seems like a decent place. I guess it's better than receiving rejection emails/calls.
Thanks, Dogen. Well, they are apparently known for a terrible ER, but the facility itself seems like a decent place. I guess it's better than receiving rejection emails/calls.
I sympathize, cracker. The process of getting the first job is the worst. I wish you luck, though. Do you network? I hate networking - hate hate, not an emphatic dislike - but it's how I got half of my jobs.
I sympathize, cracker. The process of getting the first job is the worst. I wish you luck, though. Do you network? I hate networking - hate hate, not an emphatic dislike - but it's how I got half of my jobs.
I do, but I'm actually looking out-of-state. So my networking abilities is extremely limited. I do have several friends who have offered to recommend me at the local hospitals, but I'm set on leaving the area.
Earlier in this conversation, you were all talking about the negatives of SSRIs. I'm not on any. I occasionally have some issues with anxiety, which journaling/exercise and occ visits to a pyschologist help to handle.
Years ago, before I figured out how to "treat" my anxiety, I briefly tried zoloft. Even at half doses taken at night, I was SO tired. The fatigue was worse than the anxiety and I quickly quit taking it. (I'm super sensitive to many meds). My dtr has some "issues" and I forsee that she may need SSRIs in her future, but my experience with them makes me very hesitant to ever consider them.
Are the side effects worth taking the meds? I'm serious. Because everything you all are saying sounds so awful that I wonder if you regret taking them in the first place?
I had PPD, so I get being in a really dark, terrifying place. I'm assuming you only went on the meds because things were. that. bad. But I'd like to know - are you glad you started taking SSRIs? Or do you wish that you had never started them in the first place?
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Ughh cymbalta... I had to do the bead method too. Horrible horrible side effects. The brain zaps felt like my aura before a seizure. It was the first time I had heard it described and could say, yes omg yes that is what it is!