*When they stare at me for over 3 seconds for no apparent reason! Especially, when I'm trying to eat a subway sandwich or something and they just feel the need to watch me eat. Or when I'm trying to fix my hair in a portable mirror and they just feel the need to glance at me more then twice. Once should be enough because it's rude!
*When they walk so slowww in front of me to the point where I just want to push them. Because I am a very impatient person to the point where the littlest things tick me off if it's not fast enough.
*I hate when people tries to start a conversation with me! So I just smile and nod my head and hope that they get the jist that I don't want to talk. And it's not even people in general, it's actually because I'm a bad conversationalist!
Why I dislike kids:
* I don't necessarily hate them but I do force myself to be nice as possible to them. However, I really don't like interacting with children unless it's to hold a baby.
*I don't want kids until my late 30s. Go figure. And I especially don't want to get married because every relationship I get into it only lasts for about 3 months because I love being a loner. If I'm going to work seeing people then I would like to come home and see no people.
But I love animals (I have 4 dogs)! However, I just don't see myself working with animals in the future because I would love to keep my hands in tact.
And no guys I am not trolling. This is really an everything for me and it's the reasons why it is so hard for me to commit to nursing. And I actually have an appointment set up with a therapist July 18 before I go off to nursing school and it's to find out why I really act this way.
So I just wanted to make this thread because after scrolling Allnurses for the last two days I find that threads like these are not common but their are people out there who is just like me and wants to go into nursing. I want to be a nurse because I find that I really like helping people and kids at their weakest points but other than that I hate people.
I think the original poster expressed herself (himself?) eloquently and intelligently but appears rather young. I understand the context as I've always felt a bit similarly. I don't hate people but I tend to be a loner and dislike random strangers talking to me and avoid social contact. However, I think this is down to uncomfortableness (is that a word?) rather than hate. Humans are messy....loud, awkward, loving, rude, wonderful, nasty...the whole spectrum. It can be exhausting dealing with them and their myriads of ways, especially if you are young and unprepared. However, I will say that just because you feel that way shouldn't exclude you from nursing. If you're not a sociopath you can learn wonderful lessons from nursing. Over many years it has taught me how to deal with people, how to feel empathy and how to interact, how to be kind and caring. I may not like everybody, and I don't always really care too much about most people, but that doesn't stop me from acting professionally, adapting my responses to various personalities, or behaving diplomatically and empathetically to them. If you love animals then you're not missing a gene or anything. Sometimes it's easier to project feelings on to animals because they're always so good, kind and loving, where humans are not. I prefer animals too, as I find them more loyal, predictable and straightforward than humans. I find it hard to feel positively towards a species such as humans who do so much bad. Then you meet the good ones who get you all messed up inside lol.
I've known many nurses who were the kindest, sweetest, most selfless individuals I have ever had the pleasure of working with, and I tried to learn as much as I could from them about giving, and stood in awe of them most days. However, they were not always the same nurses who I would turn to in an emergency. Sometimes the nurse you wanted when a patient coded was the b1tchy, miserable one because she stayed calm and knew what to do without falling apart. It takes all kinds of people to do this job. We can't all be like Florence.
The psychology of nursing is fascinating. You will gain from it as much as it will gain from you. Sometimes being aloof in nursing can be beneficial. In the cardiac ICU it pays to stay cool and not get emotionally attached so you can think and react clearly. I'll never be one of those hand-wringing, hugging, bring-cookies, ask-after-your-dad kind of people (gods bless those who are) but I have many different kinds of gifts to give and I've been successfully nursing to a high level for 23 years. Nursing is not all hearts and flowers, but it takes intelligence and insight to manage your own feelings and emotions to a point where you are able to keep them under wraps in order to perform your job effectively. If that means therapy or psychoanalysis then so be it. Your honesty has sparked some good discussion because you expressed it in a clear and intelligent way. Don't feel bad or guilty. Recognizing your own issues can only serve to make you a better adult.
Maybe you can work in hospice home health? Minimal interaction and your near death all the time. Patients are quiet and unconscious!
Actually, I didn't mean to thank this post but I do need to say that your assumption about home hospice or inpatient hospice is wayyyy off.
About 180 degrees off. What I love about hospice is that there is often a lot of interaction with or and family. And a lot of it is wonderful.
I really hope the op can find her way and if I thought for one minute that hospice would be a good fit I would have already told her. Perhaps as she grows she might find her way to hospice. Either way good luck again op.
I skimmed it and saw cute goggies and a kitty drinking wine.
Do I have to read it? Can I get a highlight reel please?
No, just read the first page. It basically repeats for 13 or 14 pages (that weird posting before reading thing), then it got weird with the wino cat and pictures of cute dogs. Those were good posts.
No, just read the first page. It basically repeats for 13 or 14 pages (that weird posting before reading thing), then it got weird with the wino cat and pictures of cute dogs. Those were good posts.
I know you're not talking to me but I do disagree, only because not everyone believes in a god in the U.S.
Quick hi-jack.
I didn't realize how close-minded I sounded in that post, until after I clicked reply.
Glad I asked, though, because that was how I found out OP had been home schooled.
For the record, I myself am not religious. Never have been. And I grew up saying the pledge every morning in first period with classmates who never fought it. Though I am not religious, I have no qualms saying "God" because I am not atheist either, I do believe in something I just have not decided what. To me, in a situation like that, the term God can be left to interpretation.
I also can certainly understand where someone is coming from who refuses to say these things as they are written, as there is myriad of belief systems not all focusing on "God" per se. To each his own, I'm not against people who are against things due to different beliefs. Nor will I go on a rant about why everyone should believe what I do. That would be ridiculous, considering I just said I'm not even sure what I believe.
Hopefully I explained that? Maybe I confused everyone even further. Idk.
You may now resume your regularly scheduled thread.
chopwood carrywater
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Well said.
I also wondered how young the op is.