*When they stare at me for over 3 seconds for no apparent reason! Especially, when I'm trying to eat a subway sandwich or something and they just feel the need to watch me eat. Or when I'm trying to fix my hair in a portable mirror and they just feel the need to glance at me more then twice. Once should be enough because it's rude!
*When they walk so slowww in front of me to the point where I just want to push them. Because I am a very impatient person to the point where the littlest things tick me off if it's not fast enough.
*I hate when people tries to start a conversation with me! So I just smile and nod my head and hope that they get the jist that I don't want to talk. And it's not even people in general, it's actually because I'm a bad conversationalist!
Why I dislike kids:
* I don't necessarily hate them but I do force myself to be nice as possible to them. However, I really don't like interacting with children unless it's to hold a baby.
*I don't want kids until my late 30s. Go figure. And I especially don't want to get married because every relationship I get into it only lasts for about 3 months because I love being a loner. If I'm going to work seeing people then I would like to come home and see no people.
But I love animals (I have 4 dogs)! However, I just don't see myself working with animals in the future because I would love to keep my hands in tact.
And no guys I am not trolling. This is really an everything for me and it's the reasons why it is so hard for me to commit to nursing. And I actually have an appointment set up with a therapist July 18 before I go off to nursing school and it's to find out why I really act this way.
So I just wanted to make this thread because after scrolling Allnurses for the last two days I find that threads like these are not common but their are people out there who is just like me and wants to go into nursing. I want to be a nurse because I find that I really like helping people and kids at their weakest points but other than that I hate people.
BTW, I have sweet adorable dogs and a horse I'm crazy about whose wet little feet I held as my beloved mare birthed her.
Seriously, I'm still a people person. And given that I love my work with them I consider myself fortunate. It doesn't take a lot to like cute dog pics, it does take a lot to like difficult people, and it comes easy to me.
Specializes in M/S, LTC, Corrections, PDN & drug rehab.
Serious animal lover here.
I'd just about rather die than see animals suffer. I just cannot handle it.
Omg me too! I can't tell you how many times I've stopped to move turtles/dogs/etc in the road. Lol. Don't get me started on the ASPCA commercials! I can't watch them.
I don't feel good about the way I think or my actions and that is why I'm going to see a psychiatrist because maybe I have a personality disorder and I don't even know it. And the worst thing is I have a little sister and she's showing the same symptoms and dispositions I always try to hide from people. So I feel it's better to stop the problem in it's tracks now before it becomes too great. I know my kindness can be the fakest thing ever and I don't feel bad about pretending to like people.
Good luck with your therapy, AlyaMF. I respect your interest in self reflecting and correcting some of the aspects of your thinking that might be getting in your way of the success you want in life. Your wording is a bit intense, which I imagine is how it feels for you, based on the things you say. Hate is a lot of energy to focus towards anything, which creates the problem of not having that energy to focus on what you actually want in life. Having that much energy can be a wonderful benefit for you, focused in the way that makes your life work for you. My view, anyway.
I'm not sure how familiar you are with how cognitive processes work and how the quality of our thinking can influence the types of emotions and feelings we experience. Your mental health professional will hopefully introduce you to cognitive behavior therapy or a variation of it. You might find it very helpful to learn a little about what "cognitive distortions" are and how to manage them in a way that can help you achieve your professional and life goals.
Omg me too! I can't tell you how many times I've stopped to move turtles/dogs/etc in the road. Lol. Don't get me started on the ASPCA commercials! I can't watch them.
I just about wrecked my car the other day to avoid a squirrel with a death wish running across the road!
I am actually an introvert when it comes to people outside my comfort zone, however when it comes to my job, I LOVE NURSING AND PEOPLE, no matter who (or what) they are. 8 can see someone on the street and see they're in need of help, all fears are out the door. Thisis probably why those who know me say that I get too involved. Can't help it, my patients are my family too!
If you want to be a nurse you really need to do more research b/c in nursing we're a team - be it on the floor, in the clinic, with the patient, their families, everybody. The only time we aren't around people is when we go home & even then there's someone that's going to need your help, time, etc. Maybe you should look into a more administrative field pertaining to nursing or health care like Health Administration or something else. Hope this helps & good luck with your counseling.
Specializes in M/S, LTC, Corrections, PDN & drug rehab.
I guess this is a bad time to say I ran over a turtle a couple weeks ago :/
Lol. It's ok, we can still be friends. As long as you're not one of those people who hunts down turtles to run them over in your car on purpose. Then we're cool. :)
Sounds like social anxiety disorder with a little anger on the side internalized. Maybe an antidepressant and psychotherapy would help. Im sure this has been mentioned. I havent read through the whole thread. I'm wondering if home schooling contributed to this? NOT dissing homeschooling here, but do you think it could have been detrimental to your socialization skills? Believe me, I understand people get on my nerves too. When i read your post, my intuition told me you are young. So im not taking it literally that you HATE people. I suspect you are exaggerating to get a response and to relieve some anxiety here. Sometimes the replies on this website are a bit harsh in my opinion. Anyway good luck in your endeavors.
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