I feel like ****...

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I'm a nursing student but again posted this topic in this section because you are all very experienced and intelligent. So here it goes:

I attend a university for nursing, and I absolutely love the program. The faculty members are phenomenal and they also have tremendous support for me to succeed in this program because I have a hearing disability. I'm beyond grateful to have their support. I was born deaf in both ears and got a Cochlear Implant so I can hear everything now.

But in the school, it's almost over (two more weeks until exams) and I still have not made any friends. Not even a single friend. Let me elaborate. I've added the new friends I've made on my Facebook and whenever they are online, I would initiate a conversation to, you know, make new friends. That works but the problem is that they NEVER initiate a conversation with me. Never. Not even once. Sometimes people would come up to me and say, "hi" and that's it. They would walk away and sit in a different seat. Because of my hearing disability, my speech sounds a bit different (it's now worse but I will have speech therapy soon to rectify the problem) and I've noticed that when I'm in school and I go up to people to chat, they are like, "what?" As in they don't understand me a bit and they seem to be a bit lazy. For example, I asked a girl beside me in a lecture, "is that our professor?" and she said, "yea....wait what? What did you say?" People don't seem to be putting in an effort in making a conversation with me with my hearing loss.

Also, every time I go to lectures, I've noticed that when my nursing classmates are with their circle of friends. Always. I have seen a few nursing students who come in alone but they will end up sitting with their friends in the lecture. I've always sat alone. There's one girl who I like and we are kinda "friends" but whenever she sees me sitting alone, she would say "hey how are you? blah blah blah" and then sit next to me. I would be so happy until HER friends come in and then she moves to a different seat to be with them. This happens to me every single time. Everywhere I go, I see nursing students with their circle of friends and I have no one literally. I'm a HUGE introvert but nonetheless I always make an effort to make new friends or talk to people.

I think it's because of my hearing disability.

Specializes in CWON - Certified Wound and Ostomy Nurse.
Yes, there are other hearing impaired students at my university but I haven't met them (they are not in nursing; in fact, a faculty member told me that I'm the only nursing student with a hearing disability).

I have to admit that I can be reluctant to start a conversation sometimes. Based on my past experiences with how people get frustrated when communicating with me, I completely avoid socializing with people at all.

If there is any group of individuals who would/should be supportive and understanding it's nurses. I have to ask people and patients to repeat themselves all the time from years of loud music/earphones. My concern would not be getting frustrated with you, I would feel more concerned you would be frustrated with me....does that make any sense?

Specializes in L&D.

It could be your disability, but maybe not. Ill be honest..I have a hard time making friends. I graduated in May and thought I made some good friends there...turns out...they were gone as soon as school ended...ONLY one person from my nursing class and I still talk(well 2 really but one is my sister lol). So you are not alone. Work wise, I feel I've made a few friends, but I am not one of those really outgoing people so it is hard.

Specializes in Neuroscience.

You talk about people coming up to you and starting a conversation, but how often do you start the conversation? Often it takes two. Seems to me like the students who are initiating the conversation are doing their part. What do you do to make friends?

You had two very long threads on this topic recently. Did that not garner you any useful replies or suggestions?

https://allnurses.com/nurses-with-disabilities/really-need-your-902211.html (January)

https://allnurses.com/general-nursing-student/nurses-please-help-885965.html (October)

You had two very long threads on this topic recently. Did that not garner you any useful replies or suggestions?

https://allnurses.com/nurses-with-disabilities/really-need-your-902211.html (January)

https://allnurses.com/general-nursing-student/nurses-please-help-885965.html (October)

Hi GrnTea, yes I am aware that I have made multiple threads but this thread is particularly about making friends or communicating with my other nursing classmates. As for the two threads you posted, the suggestions are very useful for me, but I felt I needed to post a new thread about socialization. I'm sorry if I keep bothering all of you with my multiple new threads.

Missmollie, Yes! Sometimes people do come up to me and start a conversation, and in order to maintain it, I would ask them questions like, "how was your weekend? Did you like the new professor? blah blah..." Often, they would interrupt and say, "oh I have to go." This has happened MANY times. Even on Facebook, when it's easier for me to communicate because I don't have to miss anything out, people would not even respond at all! Luckily, there's one friend whom I can talk to and we can have conversations that would last hours, but she doesn't initiate a conversation neither. It has to be me.

Many years ago, I had a classmate with a similar background to you. He was deaf, but got a cochlear implant at some point. His speech was difficult for many to understand, but I usually did not have a problem understanding him. Most of my classmates did, so I ended up repeating everything he said to them. Eventually, this classmate wanted to be with me all the time because I was a connection to the rest of the world. Unfortunately, even though I could understand him, it required a lot of concentration. So, when I had 15 minutes between two hard classes, I never got a break from thinking. It was exhausting for me. I just couldn't do it.

So, if you think you speech has deteriorated, it may be difficult for others to understand. Before a hard class, others may not want to put in the effort to communicate with you. If you are making connections over social media, use those avenues to invite people to a movie, coffee, etc. When the other person isn't stressed out about class, they may be more willing to interact with you. I would guess that once they get more familiar with you, your speech will be easier to understand (just like anyone with an accent -- after awhile it's not hard to understand them even though they have the same accent). Plus, if you ask someone to hang out, it'll one-on-one, which I'm guessing is easier than a group.

It it won't be easy. But keep at it. Good luck. :)

Many years ago, I had a classmate with a similar background to you. He was deaf, but got a cochlear implant at some point. His speech was difficult for many to understand, but I usually did not have a problem understanding him. Most of my classmates did, so I ended up repeating everything he said to them. Eventually, this classmate wanted to be with me all the time because I was a connection to the rest of the world. Unfortunately, even though I could understand him, it required a lot of concentration. So, when I had 15 minutes between two hard classes, I never got a break from thinking. It was exhausting for me. I just couldn't do it.

So, if you think you speech has deteriorated, it may be difficult for others to understand. Before a hard class, others may not want to put in the effort to communicate with you. If you are making connections over social media, use those avenues to invite people to a movie, coffee, etc. When the other person isn't stressed out about class, they may be more willing to interact with you. I would guess that once they get more familiar with you, your speech will be easier to understand (just like anyone with an accent -- after awhile it's not hard to understand them even though they have the same accent). Plus, if you ask someone to hang out, it'll one-on-one, which I'm guessing is easier than a group.

It it won't be easy. But keep at it. Good luck. :)

Thank you for your comment. I like this comment. My speech is pretty understandable - I mean a lot of classmates could understand me (in fact some of them even told me that my speech was good but I find that hard to believe). One of my classes has a component in which you are assigned to a group and then you discuss what you learn in that class. I always raise my hand to participate (participation is mandatory) and I get surprised when someone or my instructor can understand me. I don't know what's going on, but now I can feel my speech is getting worse a bit, so that's why I said I'm getting speech therapy sessions soon.

Oops, I forgot to mention one thing! Last year I had one speech language pathologist who assessed my speech and said to me, "I'm not concerned about your speech. There were some words I couldn't understand but overall your speech was very good." Perhaps you were all right - I'm jumping to conclusions way too fast.

Yes, there are other hearing impaired students at my university but I haven't met them (they are not in nursing; in fact, a faculty member told me that I'm the only nursing student with a hearing disability).

I have to admit that I can be reluctant to start a conversation sometimes. Based on my past experiences with how people get frustrated when communicating with me, I completely avoid socializing with people at all.

I have a language disordered kid. Who was basically non-communicative. Caused a great deal of anxiety for her. She found many, many friends in the ESL classes of her school. Ya'll are learning to speak to be understood. She is now fluent in Spanish as well as English. Gravitate to an ESL class that may be taught at your school. If your first language was sign, I can imagine that it could be a pretty good class to take.

And find those kids who are hearing impaired. I get that your implants are sometimes a "weird" topic amongst the hearing impaired community. But to connect and support could be something that would make you more comfortable if someone else has implants as well.

Again, wishing you the best.

When I was in school I didn't have any friends in my nursing program the first year (prerequisites, A&P). By graduation my only friends were nursing majors ;)

Clinicals are actually a great time to make friends. When you get your assigned placement email the students in your group and see if anyone wants to start a carpool (great way to save money and to get to know your classmates). If you're ever stuck for conversation just remember that by just being nursing majors you already have so much in common and you're all going through the same crazy experiences at the same time. I truly think that with time you will make more friends!

By the way, there is a nurses with disabilities board on here. Try posting there

If I were you, I wouldn't focus as much on making friends in nursing school. Nursing students are stressed to the max and making new friendships puts even more strain on them. Most revert to keeping their established friendships going.

Also, I have known a few people with disabilities who tend to focus on their disability as a block to fitting in socially when the truth is it is due to underdeveloped social skills from being isolated. So, try to be objective and assess whether or not it is truly your speech/hearing, or whether it is your tendency to be an introvert. The situation would be easier to correct if it is your speech and hearing. If it is due to being an introvert, there are many online resources to help you develop the skills needed to find friendship.

Good luck making friends! As an introvert myself, I know how hard that can be.

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