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half way through and feeling bleak

I've heard of nursing burn out but has anyone out there experienced nursing student burnout? I am almost halfway through, am still pulling As and Bs in classes, have passed all labs except the last -- I'm on probation for the first time -- been meeting all clinical requirements, care plans, skills, etc., but I seem to have lost my zest for everything. Today we did a new lab demo and I was watching and taking notes and just feeling this sense of dread like, I still have to pass the lab I failed and I just know I'm going to fail this one, like it's just a matter of time before the whole house of cards collapses. Really, I feel like it's only a matter of time before I just flunk out and I'm kind of like, I don't know, I had so much passion when I went into this, and I have jumped through A LOT of hoops and I can't imagine doing anything else but...phloop...I feel like a deflated balloon. Can anyone relate? And how do I get myself back on track? :uhoh21:

I can relate! I am also half way thru, and I dread my summer being over and going back to......."jail".....heehee....well, that is what it feels like, anyway!

At the end of my first year, I failed a test, and my overall grade was just making a C. I got to feeling blah, and got real down on myself. Then I told myself to get myself together, think positive, and start kicking a$$. So I pulled myself up from barely a C to a high B for my final grade.

Don't make one fail make or break you. Tell yourself you can do it, and you will.

Good luck.

ckh23, BSN, RN

Specializes in ER/ICU/STICU. Has 6 years experience.

I agree with the above poster. Don't let one lab failure stop you. It happens and it doesn't mean your going to make a bad nurse. As a recent graduate, I can remeber the half way point and wondering when it would be over and I would dread going to class. It will get better the second half because everything will start coming together and before you know it you will be ready to graduate. Graduation is the big payoff of all that hard work, and it is well worth it. Just hang in there.

ZASHAGALKA, RN

Specializes in Critical Care. Has 15 years experience.

YOU CAN DO IT.

You have to think about nursing school as putting in your dues.

It's worth it.

The rants us -already in the field - nurses rant about are the stesses of a high stress job.

But ask us if it's worth it, and most of us will say, heck yeah!

The neat thing about this job is that you go to work everyday knowing that the very real difference in somebody's life could be you, today.

One of my common prayers before I go to work: "If the opportunity should arise, allow me to be the miracle You send somebody today"

Where else can you get that.

Hang in there. School is about weeding out those who shouldn't be in nursing. That's a good thing. But it's time for a gut check. You are one of the ones who should be here, right?!?

It might be time to suck it up and take a fuller measure of yourself. But if you search your soul, you will find that you are morally tall enough.

Hold faith with yourself. That's what you are not only in nursing school to accomplish; it's what you are in life to accomplish.

Timothy.

man I hear you.

I think nurse instructors think that they are weeding people out so there can be good nurses...high standards and the like.....

I wonder though how much of this is....I went through it, so you should go through it in the same way I did.

Things have gotten different lately. Now if you get kicked out, your finished, in years past getting kicked out just meant starting over or transfering.

I think your lucky that you only have to worry about passing and grading. All you need to do is study better/more/more efficiently. My problem is more insidious, I'm not really great at sucking up, or dealing with this kind of arbitrary authority.

I think it's cultural, I never learned this kind of respect for authority...I kinda wonder how many new york jews make it through california nursing schools......

Stick with it, get a couple of good grades, and things will look a little different.

I've heard of nursing burn out but has anyone out there experienced nursing student burnout? I am almost halfway through, am still pulling As and Bs in classes, have passed all labs except the last -- I'm on probation for the first time -- been meeting all clinical requirements, care plans, skills, etc., but I seem to have lost my zest for everything. Today we did a new lab demo and I was watching and taking notes and just feeling this sense of dread like, I still have to pass the lab I failed and I just know I'm going to fail this one, like it's just a matter of time before the whole house of cards collapses. Really, I feel like it's only a matter of time before I just flunk out and I'm kind of like, I don't know, I had so much passion when I went into this, and I have jumped through A LOT of hoops and I can't imagine doing anything else but...phloop...I feel like a deflated balloon. Can anyone relate? And how do I get myself back on track? :uhoh21:

Can you find some time to carve out and do something really fun? even if its just a couple hours at a museum, or playing splatball, or something different. It sounds like you are getting buried under a bit and you need to find the time to reconnect with yourself in another aspect other than that of student nurse.

Remember that you are a whole person and its important to take some time back from studying and do something totally not related. Me, I don't do ANY school work on Fridays. Not even a peek at my notes. That is MY time that I am not a student, I am just ME. Can you do that? The trick is to find some balance for yourself.

Do you have someone you can talk to? Maybe you are in a bit of a depression and it might help to talk it out. Realy, look at the pressure you are under and by telling yourself you are going to fail, you almost guarantee it. Does your school have some kind of student assistance program you can go to? Zoloft changed my life and there is no stigma with it.

Good luck and keep your eyes on the prize. This WILL END. You WILL PASS that lab. You know you will!

mariedoreen

Specializes in Med-Surg. Has 3 years experience.

When do you get a break between terms?

JenNJFLCA

Has 6 years experience.

OMG!! I am feeling the exact same way! I am hoping that having the summer off from classes will be the break that I need. I am just tired of nursing school. Tired of care plans. Tire of getting treated like dirt by the nurses at the hospital. Tired of getting grades I don't deserve and watching slackers get higher grades in clinical (we get letter grades.....that's just wrong). I feel like a teenager in nursing school.....I am not ready to be out on my own yet, but I am tired of being treated like an idiot. I am literally counting down the days till pinning......323 to be exact! I know I will be fine once I am out of school, and I truly do love nursing, but I am tired of working FT, going to school FT, & all the things listed above!

Fridays are my days for NO school work & NO work. I usually have class for 3 hours & that's it. IT's my favorite day of the week that I savor & cherish. :)

I totally relate sweetie - I really do. I found myself feeling this way awhile ago. What I did was get myself a study-buddy to email with. We motivated each other, set out daily plans for study so that we would feel like we'd be letting the other one down if we lost the plot, and just worked through the plan. In between we would send each other little notes of encouragement and confidence boosting. It really helped.

Yeah I've been like a heat-seeking missile since I started this. Absolute total focus on school to the point where I sort of forgot why I was actually going to school. Why am I sitting here talking to my teacher with my hand up this mannequins butt? Oh enema lab. Oh. I will need to do this on actual people. Kind of lose sight of the goal. Need to focus on the goal. Or not. I figure my first year on the job is going to be pretty scary. OK, the goal after that is to be a good NURSE :nurse:

Anyway I went into lab today and practiced my procedure until I got kicked out, will go in tomorrow am, practice, practice. I will get this.

I'm kind of a total control freak and have never felt more out of control. My response is to become even more controlling and, thus, feel more out of control. It always worked before; what's the deal? :p Anyway, one month break in July.

Thanks all, for your input. :)

I hear you.

I am in my third year of four, and was not doing well. Ended up in counselor's office after crying every day for two weeks, not sleeping properly for three weeks, no short term memory, and a few other symptoms. Diagnoses? Severe depression. I'm now on Efexor, and seeing a counselor regularly. I had to tell my profs, and they have been awesome. Again I am reminded that they are all nurses first, profs second (at leat at our school).

So I guess I am saying that you may be in a similar boat. One question the counselor asked me in our first session was did I like nursing. I had to tell her that somewhere inside I still love it, but I can't feel it right now. I'm a little better now, Dr. says another two weeks for full effect of meds to be felt. Then we may have to up the dose.

She was another surprise. When I went to her about this, her response was that she had been expecting this! She said that with the change of me going back to school after being an at home mom, coupled with the choice of nursing, AND how hard I am on myself (anything under 90% is NOT good enough), she had been watching for this. That was without two deaths in our family in 14 months, and some other emotionally tramatic stuff.

so here is what every one is telling me BE KIND TO YOURSELF. Easier said than done, I know, but I am working on it. And seek some professional help. Whether medical or counseling, or both. It is really making a difference for me.

Also, find a buddy or two that you can really talk with. That has also helped me a lot.

Post here, or email me if you want. That may help too.

So as my Dr. said, it is not a character flaw or a weakness in you. It is simply your humanity showing through, and that is OK.

Cheers :Melody:

crb613, BSN, RN

Specializes in Med Surg/Tele/ER. Has 7 years experience.

I will graduate in May (fingers crossed)! & I feel the same way. I have always had plenty of energy & self motivation for studying.........but now I find it soooo hard to do. I have a big ole test coming up & what am I doing.........not studying. I don't want to do my reading... although I do try to & it is pure torture. I will actually count the pages to see how many I have left. Geezh, I have to get over this & don't know how. So far I am doing fine but I know I could do so much better & that is really a bad feeling. On the other hand clinicals are a different story...I am all over that & love them & I hate to see the day end....I am like a dang superball all over the place, doing any & everything I get a chance to. I take care of my pt & help everybody else & still look for stuff to do. Maybe this is normal (probally not) but if ya'll figure out how to get some balance back please let me know! Everyone has told me that things will just click.....well I have not had the click moment yet & am getting a little worried......when do things click? I am running out of time!

JentheRN05, RN

Specializes in OB, ortho/neuro, home care, office.

I graduated from nursing school 5 months ago. I remember this sooooo strongly. I wish I had found allnurses before I got out of school, because I thought I was nuts. I was sick of reading, sick of studying, sick of school, sick of answering to someone else for everything I do, sick of being sick and tired.

I had two deaths that hit me very hard within 5 months of each other and only 2 months to graduation I had a near breakdown. I took a week off after the second death (unexpected 18yo niece killed in a car accident) and re-evaluated what I wanted to do with my life, how nursing school had affected my thinking, how much (and how often) a patient said these all so important words to me "thank you so much for taking such good care of me today". I thought what would I do if I quit now, I am just sooooo tired. You know what I realized? I would be the nurse the made so persons day better, and made possibly made the person better. Their life could be forever changed by what I have said/done and for that they would/could be forever grateful. That and that alone got me through to graduation.

Guess what? The other day, I had that person whose day and life was changed by my being her nurse. She was a patient in with back surgery after 20+ years of lower back pain. I having lived with lower back pain for the last 2-3 years could sympathize with her pain. She was now in a different kind of pain, this kind of pain WOULD indeed end, and she would feel better. But to top it off she was incredibly nauseated. I did everything within my power to make her comfortable in all aspects.

At one point, I came into her room, (I had been in her room quite a bit due to her nausea and vomiting and pain) when I came in the room, I walked up to her bedside and placed my hand on her bed rail. When I looked down at her, she had tears in her eyes, she grabbed my hand and said to me with a quivering voice "I didn't get you in trouble did I?" I of course had no idea what she was talking about. I told her "of course not why?" she went on to tell me that she heard someone say "this is your last warning". She thought that I had spent too much time in her room and that I was being warned that I better get on the ball and stay out of her room - or else. I truly had no idea what she was talking about. I told her that, I said, "you must of overheard someone elses conversation, I promise you that it wasn't me" she asked me if I was sure. I promised her I was. Then she went on to say that she was told that a 'nurse in training' would be caring for her today. I said, "that was me". She looked dumbfounded for a moment, squeezed my hand and said, "no, that couldn't have been you they were talking about, you ARE a TRUE nurse, and the best nurse I've ever had." I told her how much I appreciate her kind words and she said, "I mean it, I felt that you truly cared about me the entire time you've cared for me." I told her, "that's my job" she said, "no your job is to take care of me physically, you have done more than that, you have truly taken CARE of me, and I can't tell you how much that means to me - you have been a wonderful caring nurse, and I thank you for that, and I won't forget you".

That my friends is what I needed to hear to make all those last two months worth while. Someday, you will hear those words, and those will make your days where your exhausted and burned out worthwhile. I keep a journal of things like that. So that I will never forget. But I can tell you now, I wouldn't need to journal to remember that.

Tweety, BSN, RN

Specializes in Med-Surg, Trauma, Ortho, Neuro, Cardiac. Has 28 years experience.

I was burned out like you are feeling quite a bit in nursing school.

I think your control freak nature made your thinking sprial out of control...."I've failed one lab and now the whole house of cards is falling apart". All or nothing kind of thinking.

Just put one foot in front of the other. Sounds like you're very determined.

It's quite normal to have feelings of burn out, impending doom and fatigue. Just don't give into them for long. Good luck!

Just hang in there ok? I also agree that you may need to take some time off for yourself. Just one day could make a HUGE difference. I wish I would have done that. I was like you...studying all the time and was SO stressed out. By the end of my first semester I was a basket-case and I ended up dropping out of the program. I didn't think I wanted to be a nurse anymore. But now I realize what I BIG mistake I made and I really do want to be nurse, more than anything. I'm now planning on going back and this time I will finish..I'm determined! So don't let this tough time get to you. Think about how happy you are going to be on your graduation day and what it'll be like to be able to put RN after your name, how proud you will feel :). Just don't do what I did and give up. Because I really, really regret it now. But now I have set my mind to it and I know I will make it and I will be a nurse. So just hang in there and it'll all be over with before you know it. Hugs!!

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