Yes, ladies and gentlemen. I was checking my results on affinity and my last test result is positive for alcohol. The problem is, I didn't drink. The only thing I can think might have caused it was some lemon tahini dressing at a vegetarian restaurant I ate at the night before. I've had the same dressing in the past and never had a problem.
The killer in all this is that I am due to complete monitoring in four days. Yes.
Never had any positives during monitoring, nothing but a dilute specimen. I'm not drinking, not using, nothing. And bing.
*Sigh*
I haven't heard from my case manager yet. I'm trying to stay calm and think. Stick to my routine and not worry. I know I do have options, I just can't believe this. After everything I have done, all the scrupulous watching everything I do, eat, drink, and walking on eggshells...BUT we will just wait and see.
Somebody must be out of town last week to do your meeting. What is the delay?
The IPN changed its completion requirements to at least 6 months negative drug screens without (dilute/abnormal). If needed they would do a hair and blood test also.
First of all I don't think you need the above tests, but while you were waiting these past 5-6 days. You could of had any extra tests they require. Its crazy, that these experimental tests out weigh any other evaluation tools.
I know of a girl in my group that had a 2 extra years added her contract trying to have non-dilute/non-abnormal screens.
You are a patient, patient soul. If I were in your position (G-d willing I won't be) I would be chewing someone's back end. Patience not being a better aspect of my personality, I must say that I envy your ability to not emulate the likes of me.
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You are a patient, patient soul. If I were in your position (G-d willing I won't be) I would be chewing someone's back end. Patience not being a better aspect of my personality, I must say that I envy your ability to not emulate the likes of me.
I'm not necessarily patient. Ask my husband.
My belief is that most of this monitoring stuff is a mind game. For me, this means having my emotions under control, choosing my words carefully, deploying them precisely, sticking with the facts of the matter at hand, not discussing extraneous matters, and playing my cards close to the vest. I have watched and learned, and continue to do it.
Think of it as a chess game. I don't play chess, but I do have a very old book called The Art of War by Sun Tzu. I like it because it can be applied to social interactions as well as military strategy. The one who keeps a cool head and uses critical thinking has a better chance of being effective in whatever they do. No, the matter at hand isn't war in the conventional sense. But the stakes are still very high. I can't afford to blow it now.
Learning how to keep myself under wraps yet still have good emotional health has taken me more years than I'd comfortably admit. But it has saved my a** more than once.
I also remember how fearful I was sixteen years ago when I got caught diverting. This situation now is a bit anxiety provoking, but is nothing like that. Now I KNOW I haven't been using. Being on the side of truth is nothing like I felt back then, because back then I knew I wasn't on the side of truth. Huge difference.
Specializes in ER, ICU/CCU, Open Heart OR Recovery, Etc.
You are a patient, patient soul. If I were in your position (G-d willing I won't be) I would be chewing someone's back end. Patience not being a better aspect of my personality, I must say that I envy your ability to not emulate the likes of me.
I admire YOU for hanging in there in your situation, which is one of the most difficult I've witnessed. You're not long on patience, but there are worst things. You exhibit courage and perseverance in spite of the circumstances and bs. Not a lot of people are able to do that.
I admire you highly for that. Wish I had an emoji for *Tips hat*
Think of it as a chess game. I don't play chess, but I do have a very old book called The Art of War by Sun Tzu. I like it because it can be applied to social interactions as well as military strategy. The one who keeps a cool head and uses critical thinking has a better chance of being effective in whatever they do. No, the matter at hand isn't war in the conventional sense. But the stakes are still very high. I can't afford to blow it now.
Learning how to keep myself under wraps yet still have good emotional health has taken me more years than I'd comfortably admit. But it has saved my a** more than once.
I also remember how fearful I was sixteen years ago when I got caught diverting. This situation now is a bit anxiety provoking, but is nothing like that. Now I KNOW I haven't been using. Being on the side of truth is nothing like I felt back then, because back then I knew I wasn't on the side of truth. Huge difference.
Wow there is some hard earned, life long truth in there!
I'm not necessarily patient. Ask my husband.
SororAKS, ADN, RN
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Still hanging out. Am expecting news tomorrow. Thank you all for your prayers and good vibes. It means a lot.