I am doing an internship now that lasts 3 months. I have to either work 1 year to pay that off or I have to pay 18k to cover the expenses of this internship. I HATE it. I hatenursing.I can't stand the condescending docs, impatient patients, the random little tid-bits of things to remember on the job. I'm naturally a little ADHD (untreated)and my mindis so scatter-brained. I tried towrite everything down,but I dont have TIME for that. I feel as I did in nursing school... like however hard iwork, it is never good enough. I'm always forgetting to chart something...or assess something. I admire the critical care nurses and their ability to problem solve like,if notbetter than docs, but i don't think i'm able to endure the years it takes toget to that level of knowledge and comfort. I can't helpbut feel trapped... i have no idea what else i could do except for nursing. This stress is not worth the paycheck... and I'm considering paying over 15k to break this contract and get out of this terrible field that causes me severe anxiety that is turning into depression ...
any advice or suggestions?