Is There Something Wrong With ME???? - page 3

You all probably don't remember this, but I was terminated from school back in May for failing the foley check-off. Well I went back July 9th. Today I was terminated for good for failing to wear... Read More

  1. by   Vsummer1
    ummm... you aren't in AZ are you? My first day of clinicals I was nervous as a CAT! I had NEVER been in a LTC facility, and was "partnered" with someone who had experience in one. I was book smart and hands on stupid. The day before actually seeing the patient (oops, client) I read in the chart she was prone to biting, hitting etc. I was a wreck!

    Needless to say, my "partner" couldn't handle the client (patient) either and said "go get xxxxx" (our clinical supervisor). I hi-tailed it out of there, ran down the hall and asked for help. I was a marked woman from then on. I learned the difference between a true "emergency" (as in client falls on floor) and emergency in my mind (client is obstructive and you are terrified she will act out physically which is horrible being that you have NEVER changed a diaper on a woman twice your size and this one is violent!).

    In any case, my clinical instructor was also my "mentor" and I NEVER got along, from that day on. I walked out on an 4.0 average TERRIFIED to go back. She told me I looked "good on paper"

    Needless to say, I changed schools and have met with my new instructor and feel much more comfortable. In fact, I don't think I am gonna be the same student anymore... I don't need A's, I just need to learn --please instructors, teach me the clinicals without the terror of violence my first day (or the colostomy change, the tube feed... along with the other patient who had constipation and let loose on me... hours of oozing ... all in my first 2 days of clinicals!)

    So, guys, that drowning "help" dude in the corner is my mentality returning to nursing school after 2 years!

    Is it me? or is it every student who faces these horrors their first week!! I feel weak just thinking about what I had to face my first week 2 years ago. Tell me it ain't so! Tell me that I will get a learning experience that isn't so bad... or is it all the same and I can't handle it?
  2. by   NICURNtobe
    Mine told me that I'm very intelligent but that there are other things I could do in medicine besides being a nurse! Excuse me???
  3. by   delirium
    Originally posted by NICURNtobe
    Mine told me that I'm very intelligent but that there are other things I could do in medicine besides being a nurse! Excuse me???
    My instructor told me that I was obviously very intellectual, and why did I want to 'settle' with becoming a nurse when I could obviously go much further.

    I think she meant it as a compliment, though.
  4. by   NICURNtobe
    No, she meant that I shouldn't be a nurse cause she felt I couldn't grasp the infection control concept - PULEEEZE!!!
  5. by   micro
    Originally posted by NICURNtobe
    Mine told me that I'm very intelligent but that there are other things I could do in medicine besides being a nurse! Excuse me???
    "when I was in school.......I had an instructor tell me in a routine evaluation......that i should take up a hobby........."
    like, excuse me?????, but what in the heck does a hobby or anyother of my personal life have to do with my nursing capabilities or studies........"

    whatever you want, do it............
    the rest of the world is mistaken if they say differently...........

  6. by   Love-A-Nurse
    don't give up and hang in there.
  7. by   Flo1216
    I was extremely nervous in clinicals my freshman year, even though I did well in the theory parts. I would get nervous to the point where I was paralyzed and couldn't function and it came up in all of my clinical evaluations. I almost failed clinical because of it. So I decided to become a CNA and it really helped me. I am leaps and bounds ahead of my classmates in clinical now and my instructors can't believe the difference. Also, I had an instructor once tell me that I should "go into hospice because it was less stressful and I wouldn't have to worry about killing anyone because they were going to die anyway," Some people just suck.
  8. by   Sleepyeyes
    Please dont let that stop you!
    I agree, that was a really stupid reason to kick you out of school. I've made dumber mistakes in school, and they just taught me how to correct it. So they should've said, hey, wash your hands and put the gloves on this big deal.
    Can't tell you the number of times i've had body fluids splash, drip or spill where the gloves didn't know????
  9. by   CEN35
    i remember you telling us about it.

    your not dumb! as somebody else pointed out, it's probably nerves. there isn't really anything that makes me nervous anymore. however, when a person makes me nervous, i do "dumb" and "stupid" things also. i think there are a lot of people that get that way.
    then to top it off in your scenarios; it's much worse, because that "person" is somebody in control of your future/fate.

    try again, be confident, and don't let the fact they are there shake you. that is how you can get through it.

  10. by   Youda
    I feel so awful for you! Nothing is wrong with you! Stop that thinking right this minute! You hear me? You are a good person. Yep we all make mistakes. You get right back on that horse and ride it hard. Change programs, immediately! Find one with instructors that are supportive and encourage your growth, ones that don't make you feel like a gun is to your head and rag so that you get so nervous. Don't give up. Please, don't give up. We need people as nurses who care enough to hang in there. Take a little time to REALLY figure out what goes wrong. Probably nerves, I agree with that. Who can do anything without nerves with instructors breathing down your neck? But, only you can really look at what was going on with you. So, figure it out, then enroll somewhere else. If you knew some of the nitwits who managed to pass Boards, then what you did is minor! Don't let it stop you. You'll be one of the best, caring nurses when you get your RN, because you'll know how hard it is to get, and how easy it is to lose it. God love you!
  11. by   Youda
    One more thought: When I was in clinicals, I had an instructor watching me give a bedbath. It was a male patient, and I was very young and was so embarrassed about "down there." My instructor was standing there with her arms crossed over her chest and making me even more nervous. I spilled water, I dropped washclothes, etc. At the end, I thought I'd managed to do a fairly decent job despite it all and breathed a sigh of relief. The instructor then began to berate me in front of the patient because I "forgot to wash and dry between his toes!" You know, I've never forgot that and skin care issues because of that old hag. But, the point I wanted to make is that she didn't have to be so harsh, and neither did your instructors. See it for what it was, a nasty learn experience. And, then try again.
  12. by   pebbles
    I really hate the fact that the "intimidation" style of learning is still proliferating in nursing schools today.... do they think they can bully people into being good nurses?

    Definitely go to another school... I don't think you should have to beat the bullies in order to get an education - mind you, and education that YOU are paying for!
  13. by   Glad2behere
    I call it culture shock....done it myself a bunch of times

    It just take repetition and reaching a comfort zone. Some of are the exact opposite....can do the clinical stuff like a true professional and know the theory and can practice it....but cannot pass a test for anything....lock up, lose it, cannot focus, it is just as frustrating I think.

    I had two instructors who told me that I wrote the most logical scientific nursing process critques for class, exceptional clinicals, and that I should have gone to med school instead (water under da bridge), but test question always blew me away because I could not relate to the abstract questions asked ( I thought they were abtract as a ghost balloon).

    What you might try is some rehearsal if you get to another nursing school..worked great for me. Get a life size doll and practice entering the room with different scenarios and disease processes taking place and consult a textbook simultaneously with nursing care plans laid out for you.

    After putting on the gloves for the hundreth time, you'll be a natural!


    This advice is subject to my normal disclaimer, specifically written or implied.