Quote from lannisz
I always thought once I'd been a nurse for a few years that the anxiety would go away. I'm talking SEVERE, heart pounding, "can't sleep, want to throw up and head is killing me because I have to go to work today" type of anxiety. I started having this when I began clinicals in nursing school. I thought as I became more experienced it would diminish. It hasn't - and I have been a nurse for 3 years now. It doesn't matter where I am or what shift, whether small hospital, big one or clinic. I was put on antidepressants in nursing school and I'm still on them (Wellbutrin). I haven't had a panic attack in years, but I had one the other day toward end of shift (I went and hid in the bathroom). I feel like I do OK at hiding my anxiety at work but after that panic attack last week, I don't know that I'm still OK..Does anyone else deal with this? I'm new at this hospital and I don't want to cause problems or ask for any special treatment. I'm not sure what to do.
I used to be so anxious that I have often thought about checking myself into the psychiatric floor at my local hospital. Just the thought of work used to invoke extreme anxiety and fear. I used to be so anxious when I was on my way to work. And I know that it was work-related because when I wasn't working, I was fine.
I finally had to do two things. First, i had to pray and really talk to God about my fears. Many of them were unfounded, but I couldn't snap out of it alone. So, what you need to do is talk to someone. If you don't believe in God or aren't a religious person, then talk to a professional that can help you deal with your problems.
Secondly, i had to self-hynotize. I really had to tell myself that I am not anxious, I will not let anxiety rule me, and I don't care what anybody thinks of me. Because a lot of my anxiety had to do with a lack of confidence. You know, sometimes the patients can give you looks that make you feel like the dumbest person on this planet. Sometimes it's not the patient. It can be a family member, a doctor, another nurse, etc. But what you've got to remember is that you can't be any worse than the worst person. Unfortunately, there are some not-so-smart nurses that do just fine day to day. And I can tell by your post that you're not one of them. If they can do it, so can you. You have a fear of failure, don't you? I once did, too. But after a lot of praying and a lot of building my self-confidence, i changed. Now no one can make me feel that I don't matter.
So, please, talk to someone you trust. It will help you so much. Good luck in overcoming your anxiety. The mind is more powerful than the body. With that knowledge in hand, you CAN overcome this. You just got to believe in you and you will make it. I promise.
Love ya, and God bless.