I took the NCLEX yesterday for the 4th time. I came home and tried the PV trick and got to the credit card page. At that very moment I felt like a complete looser. I don't feel like I want to take the test anymore, why ? Maybe I am not ment to be an RN. I am an LVN and passed those boards the first time. So, to have so much difficulty passing the NCLEX RN is extremly depressing to me. The first time I didn't pass I was so depressed for over a week. I just get to feeling lower and lower each time I take it. I have taken HURST and done the KAPLAN book. At this point I am seriosly considering a differnt career. I don't want to do this anymore ! Each time I take the boards and fail , the time between retaking is getting longer. Everyone in my class has passed, so ya I feel like a big fat looser. It's now been two years since I graduated and still I haven't passed. Sorry to be such a downer but I am at a low point and just need to say what I am feeling right now. I just can't understand why I can't do this. So lastnight I got back on the "All Nurses" site to read , maybe find inspiration or something. I just want to cry and scream right now. I am embarrassed , but I finally got the courage to write about what I am feeling right now. I would appreciate and words of wisdom at this point. My best friend just graduated the ADN program in May and took the boards a week ago and passed the first time. I am very happy for her and wish her the best but I had hoped that I would have already been and RN and would have had some experience and time under my belt , but no, I am still in the same place , no RN license and no job.