1230 AM and feel like I failed NCLEX PN

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I just don't know what to do. Earlier I was freaking out but in a way where I was able to laugh it off and realize that everyone thinks this way. Now I have had time, (took the test at 9am and its currently a little after midnight now) to completely analyze my situation.

I knew this test was going to be hard. I studied hardcore on ERI and completed a review course. This morning when I went, I was nervous but felt rather confident because I had been scoring superior on ERI almost everytime I tested. I know all the test taking tips they give you on how to get plenty of sleep and etc, but it just didnt work for me.

I slept for about two hours and woke up beyond exhausted. As silly as this might seem to some, my best friend gave me a necklace last Christmas that says Strength and Dream with little charms in circles... it was very symbolic and has been with me through a lot. I wanted to take it with me this morning as a good luck charm, but more than anything for comfort. We live 22 hours away from eachother and seriously, she's like my sister. I couldn't find it. I started panicking which is the last thing I needed to be doing 4 hours before I had to sit down and take my nclex. I never did find it, left, and just felt like crying the whole way there. I now priority wise I shoudlve been focusing, and I did go over some last minute notes, but I just kept thinking how could I lose something so important to me. Which then made me think of how I had that necklace wrapped around my wrist at my grandmothers funeral. Which then made me realize how proud my grandmother was that I was in nursing school. Dont know why im telling you all this on here becuase i dont even talk to anyone about it face to face. Guess im just spazzing out. thanks in advance to all those who read this and respond. I wore my nursing school uniform around her the day before the last time I saw her. This happened last february. I was thinking too much and tried to refocus.

By the time I actually got to the exam center I felt like a wreck. I feel retarded. Didnt eat before going, didnt really sleep before going, and allowed my emotions to make it impossible to have a clear head during it. It doesnt help that I had 147 questions and I dont know if thats good or bad but I wish I wouldve got 85, seems like a good number of questions.

Besides the fact that if I fail I can't get a job now, I don't want to dissapoint my parents, my classmates, my instructors, my friends, I just feel humiliated. I had times in clinicals where I was so thrilled to be there. I loved being in surgery and everything just felt amazing, I felt like I belonged there. Im 19 and I never worked as an aid, so each day of clinicals was new and terrifying but so thrilling and worth every moment of dedication and effort I put into studying and praying. My motivation is because I know there are nurses out there who treat patients poorly, Ive seen it happen to people I love. I just want to be someone who can actually make a difference in someones day, generate a smile or just have a positive attitude. I feel I could write an essay on all the information I memorized and studied, but none of that matters because the questions were things I had no idea how to approach. I swear I got like 10 all that apply questions and am not confident on any of them. Okay this itself is like an essay now so I apologize for the never ending rambling. Thanks to anyone who read.

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Specializes in Medical and general practice now LTC.

((((hugs)))) We all feel like this when we have taken the exam. Try and relax now whilst you wait for the results. Good luck

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Hi Nicolio! Goodluck to you! Most feel same like yours after taking the exam then learns that they hv past the test. God Bless you & Goodluck!

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Hi Nicolio! Goodluck to you! Most feel same like yours after taking the exam then learns that they hv past the test. God Bless you & Goodluck!

Thank you. Ive read 100s of posts on here now. I try to convince myself that there is hope and that I could have passed, but I have a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I also dont want to try to convince myself that I could have passed only to see that I failed. Do most people get results in 24 hours? Ive read a lot of people have. If so that would be good... because as more time goes by the sicker I feel and I definately cant sleep.

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Specializes in Med/Surg Nurse, Homecare, Visiting Nurse.

I took the NCLEX-PN on Sept 18th and passed. I found out exactly 49 hours after my test. It is the most nerve racking thing. All the time you've spent studying and all the sacrifices will pay off. Pray, keep your fingers crossed or whatever you do, just have faith in yourself. It's so hard to tell with how many questions. My friend and I both got 85 questions and she failed, we went through the same nursing program learned the same things, it just so hard to tell. I wish you lots of luck and prayers.

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I have faith that you will pass.

I was 100% sure I failed. It felt as if I was unsure on 1/2 the answers and there were diseases and meds that I had never even heard of.

The only reviewing I did was over lab values and cardiac drugs.

The night before my 8 am test I stayed up past midnight.Then I had a horrible dream about zombies attacking my house and attacking my dog.Then my dog turned into a zombie-I went in and out of a troubled sleep all night.Then I woke up and went to the testing center without eating or drinking.When I got there the testing ladies said I wasnt on their list :uhoh21:

Instead of getting to the root of it they made me wait and helped everyone else who came in after me into the testing area. I said I was 100% sure this was the day and time of my test.So this lady looked it up on the computer and said that now my name was there but it wasnt there before.I felt so relieved but I was horribly shaken up.

I was envisioning being out $200 because they would claim I wasnt there for my test.

There was someone in my testing room who had just been released from the hospital with pneumonia coughing and sniveling.

I felt like I was free falling into an abyss after around question 80-aside from being numb.I though oh no,its going to the end because I failed.

But I passed.I know the stress of passing it though.It is going to 100% change my life for the better.I didnt have the time or money to pass it again.

Good luck and I cant wait to hear you come on here and say you PASSED

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I have faith that you will pass.

I was 100% sure I failed. It felt as if I was unsure on 1/2 the answers and there were diseases and meds that I had never even heard of.

The only reviewing I did was over lab values and cardiac drugs.

The night before my 8 am test I stayed up past midnight.Then I had a horrible dream about zombies attacking my house and attacking my dog.Then my dog turned into a zombie-I went in and out of a troubled sleep all night.Then I woke up and went to the testing center without eating or drinking.When I got there the testing ladies said I wasnt on their list :uhoh21:

Instead of getting to the root of it they made me wait and helped everyone else who came in after me into the testing area. I said I was 100% sure this was the day and time of my test.So this lady looked it up on the computer and said that now my name was there but it wasnt there before.I felt so relieved but I was horribly shaken up.

I was envisioning being out $200 because they would claim I wasnt there for my test.

There was someone in my testing room who had just been released from the hospital with pneumonia coughing and sniveling.

I felt like I was free falling into an abyss after around question 80-aside from being numb.I though oh no,its going to the end because I failed.

But I passed.I know the stress of passing it though.It is going to 100% change my life for the better.I didnt have the time or money to pass it again.

Good luck and I cant wait to hear you come on here and say you PASSED

LOL! I mean, the situation isnt funny but I giggled about the zombie dog. That really does suck though. I probably would have broke down crying if the testing center said I wasnt on the list. Thanks for the encouraging words but at this point Im really not sure. its been more than 24 hours now so just waiting and refreshing the quick results page every 2 minutes, lol. Ive heard that the BON website often has your license number before Pearson Vue posts your results, is that true? Thanks so much though.

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Specializes in PeriOp, ICU, PICU, NICU.
LOL! I mean, the situation isnt funny but I giggled about the zombie dog. That really does suck though. I probably would have broke down crying if the testing center said I wasnt on the list. Thanks for the encouraging words but at this point Im really not sure. its been more than 24 hours now so just waiting and refreshing the quick results page every 2 minutes, lol. Ive heard that the BON website often has your license number before Pearson Vue posts your results, is that true? Thanks so much though.

I took mine yesterday @ 9am and found out today @ 7am that I passed. So yes, it's true. Good luck and think positive!!!!!!:balloons:

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Specializes in anything that I had my clinicals in.

Whatever happens in your future you will have your PN. You sound like a very compassionate person and we really really need nurses like that. As far as family, friends, co-workers they are all proud of you, I'm sure no mater what. I was not able to pass the first time and I felt like I let people down but they all still supported me and were still proud. It is a test that does not tell you how good of a nurse you are going to be.

I took my test again a couple days ago and I find out later today what I got. I am so scared, I got to 215 before it shut off. Last time I got to 158. I had a night kinda like yours before I took the test. Got about 3 hours of sleep, was running late and the test center that was the closest to me was a 45 min drive. I have friends that passed at 143, 200, 263, 181, 85, and many 75's so it doesn't even matter the number.

Hang in there and it will happen. I believe that if you really want something bad enough it will happen sooner or later. You have the compassion and I know the smarts, or else you wouldn't have come as far as you did, and you will have your PN.

Hang in there and be proud of yourself, you've come so far at 19!!!! Everything will work out. Good luck:)

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Thanks SO much for all the support Ive gotten in the past two days from you all. I just wanted to let everyone know that I PASSED!

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Thanks SO much for all the support Ive gotten in the past two days from you all. I just wanted to let everyone know that I PASSED!

CONGRATS YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Specializes in Medical and general practice now LTC.
Thanks SO much for all the support Ive gotten in the past two days from you all. I just wanted to let everyone know that I PASSED!

congratulations

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