It's me, 'Sick to my Stomach', I'm back looking for advice regarding the same manager who I felt was sabotaging me last year in February (I believe). I am now unemployed and I believe the manager played a part in my decision to resign.
I'm also looking for advice on how or what I can do to help change the culture of bullying. I want to create a voice so loud that maybe somebody will listen, but I don't know how.
As you know, most of us are overwhelmed, overworked, morally distressed and are continuing to be where we are needed during this pandemic... except for in my case, until I was put in a position where I don't trust the actions of the management team. I've been treated so poorly, I've talked to nurses who have been treated poorly and I feel like I need to do something to be the change in the culture of bullying and sabotage of nurses careers by fellow nurses.
Colleagues confide in me, but only when I speak out about my own experiences. My most recent experience, the last straw that caused me to make the decision to resign, was just about two weeks ago when I arrived late to the Covid unit after working OT the night before. Regardless of working OT, late is late, and I am accountable for being late. I'm also accountable for making the decision to go straight to my assignments and not clock in. However, at the end of the shift we are also responsible to document our time of arrival in the missed punches book, a.k.a. the green book.
As I entered the managers office and requested this green book I did so well announcing that I needed to do so because I was late and my manager proceeded to hand me the green book. As I'm writing my name I'm stating a loud that I'm not quite sure what time I got to work and then I was unsure exactly what to write and that I would be guessing. I get no response or direction from my manager so I say it again and this time her back is towards me, no response or guidance.
At that point I'm tired I'm irritable I want to go home and I take accountability, this is my fault for being in this position at this time, however, in my opinion it's obvious I'm requesting guidance. I then request that the time I swiped into the building be checked and used as my time of arrival because they do this anyway and have fired nurses for purposely falsifying their time entry. I am being open that I arrived late, open that I don't know an exact time I arrived, requesting to be checked and corrected for discrepancies of the time I'm guessing and entering in the green book (we are required to correct entries the day of the missed punch) and use the badge swipe from the building as an accurate time of arrival.
And still no participation from management for guidance. I close The green book and head home. The next afternoon I get a phone call from HR suspending me for time card fraud. I'm just beside myself that instead of calling me to come in and correct the time I knew I was writing as a guess, they called HR on me. I waited 24 hours after our meeting with my director and HR for them to call me with a decision of their findings and in that 24 hour time frame I decided even if they didn't fire me I couldn't work for them anymore because I don't trust them now and I couldn't give them a second opportunity to do something irreversible to my license.
I sent my resignation letter and I'm just so overwhelmed with sadness because I honestly didn't intend to commit fraud. I feel betrayed. I've never been accused of anything like this before and I don't see how they feel I'm capable of doing this when I requested to be corrected. To be clear in the green book my entry stated 0707 but my building swipe into the hospital was 0709. Also to be clear 0707 is the cut off for rounding to the next pay bracket of 15 minutes so in their mind I was trying to steal 15 minutes of time from the company. What should I do if anything to create awareness if there's even any awareness to be created from this experience. I just feel with everything I've gone through with the same manager, someone's got to hear us who are targeted and address it
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Dear Beth,
It's me, 'Sick to my Stomach', I'm back looking for advice regarding the same manager who I felt was sabotaging me last year in February (I believe). I am now unemployed and I believe the manager played a part in my decision to resign.
I'm also looking for advice on how or what I can do to help change the culture of bullying. I want to create a voice so loud that maybe somebody will listen, but I don't know how.
As you know, most of us are overwhelmed, overworked, morally distressed and are continuing to be where we are needed during this pandemic... except for in my case, until I was put in a position where I don't trust the actions of the management team. I've been treated so poorly, I've talked to nurses who have been treated poorly and I feel like I need to do something to be the change in the culture of bullying and sabotage of nurses careers by fellow nurses.
Colleagues confide in me, but only when I speak out about my own experiences. My most recent experience, the last straw that caused me to make the decision to resign, was just about two weeks ago when I arrived late to the Covid unit after working OT the night before. Regardless of working OT, late is late, and I am accountable for being late. I'm also accountable for making the decision to go straight to my assignments and not clock in. However, at the end of the shift we are also responsible to document our time of arrival in the missed punches book, a.k.a. the green book.
As I entered the managers office and requested this green book I did so well announcing that I needed to do so because I was late and my manager proceeded to hand me the green book. As I'm writing my name I'm stating a loud that I'm not quite sure what time I got to work and then I was unsure exactly what to write and that I would be guessing. I get no response or direction from my manager so I say it again and this time her back is towards me, no response or guidance.
At that point I'm tired I'm irritable I want to go home and I take accountability, this is my fault for being in this position at this time, however, in my opinion it's obvious I'm requesting guidance. I then request that the time I swiped into the building be checked and used as my time of arrival because they do this anyway and have fired nurses for purposely falsifying their time entry. I am being open that I arrived late, open that I don't know an exact time I arrived, requesting to be checked and corrected for discrepancies of the time I'm guessing and entering in the green book (we are required to correct entries the day of the missed punch) and use the badge swipe from the building as an accurate time of arrival.
And still no participation from management for guidance. I close The green book and head home. The next afternoon I get a phone call from HR suspending me for time card fraud. I'm just beside myself that instead of calling me to come in and correct the time I knew I was writing as a guess, they called HR on me. I waited 24 hours after our meeting with my director and HR for them to call me with a decision of their findings and in that 24 hour time frame I decided even if they didn't fire me I couldn't work for them anymore because I don't trust them now and I couldn't give them a second opportunity to do something irreversible to my license.
I sent my resignation letter and I'm just so overwhelmed with sadness because I honestly didn't intend to commit fraud. I feel betrayed. I've never been accused of anything like this before and I don't see how they feel I'm capable of doing this when I requested to be corrected. To be clear in the green book my entry stated 0707 but my building swipe into the hospital was 0709. Also to be clear 0707 is the cut off for rounding to the next pay bracket of 15 minutes so in their mind I was trying to steal 15 minutes of time from the company. What should I do if anything to create awareness if there's even any awareness to be created from this experience. I just feel with everything I've gone through with the same manager, someone's got to hear us who are targeted and address it
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