I am getting ready to start my pre-reqs January 3rd.
I am actually nervous about starting. When I was in High School ( I graduated in 1990) I wasn't a very good student and was never "Made" to do anything by my parents. I was the only one who Graduated out of my family, my Sister quit school at 18, my Mom quit in the 10th grade to get married to my Dad (not married now though) and who by the way made it to 7th grade w/ out learning to read or write anything more than his name. I don't want this to sound like a sob story that's not what I am trying to do here. My problem is even though my GPA was only 1.777 I have a huge desire to become a Nurse. You have to have a 2.0 at least to be admitted into the program, they said I can make it up in course work before then. I have wanted this since my Daughter was born in 1996, I got to see upclose and personal what an OB Nurse gets to do and I soooo bad have wanted it all these years, 2 more children later here I am, I watched them as I delivered my next 2 sons, the feelings I get to even watch Birth Day on Discovery Channel is pure delight, I get teary on those T.V. shows and always say out loud "I want that", I have the desire to do it no matter what anyone else says,
I get negative vibes and comments from Mom like, " Are you sure you could handle being a nurse? What if a baby would die on you", things like that discourage me, I think of things on the flip side, what if I can help a little one or an older Lady with daily activities, she sees the sad or gross as she has put it before, and I see the beauty. I realize it is not always wonderful, but I want to make a difference in my life as well as patients. I have a great husband and 3 wonderful kids that I want to make a good life for too. As I told my DH yesterday and got the death look, "Once I become a Nurse, they could put me on 2nd shift and I wouldn't even care", now that's desire to become a Nurse (Tee Hee Hee). I think my Moms probem is that I am stepping out and wanting something out of my life unlike what she has done, by the way my Mom and Sister are stay-at-home mom's (me too, but I don't want to do that forever like my mom has done) they have no desire to get out and work nor does their Husbands care if they do or they don't
My fear is w/ a GPA of 1.777 is that I won't be smart enough to make my dream happen. I can't start my program until Fall 07', so I will have all my AP's and Microbiology all the hard classes out of the way (I know there is still gonna be hard ones, but the way we have it set up now is first quarter the only thing I have to take is Foundation of Nursing and that is it, then 2nd quarter will be Foundation of Nursing 2, 3rd quarter will be Foundations in Womens health and Children then the 2nd YEAR I will have to take it all except for Sociology which I will have already taken, does this seem possible for a person like me?) . I had a boyfriend all through High School and never took things seriously, I never never never studied because it would take time from him, never took my ACT's or anything that I would ever need for College, always thought I would be at home just like Mom (not that there's anything wrong w/ that, I've been at home w/ my kids for almost 10 years, now my desires have just changed).
I'm sorry this is so long, but I can't discuss these fears w/ anybody else for I am embarrassed of my grades.
Has anyone had a low average like that and still made a go of Nursing, or do well in AP like you never thought you could or Algebra ( I stink in math too). I am going to post this in another place too so maybe I can get a lot of feedback and get some self confidence about myself. My DH, Sister and Dad are very supportive of me (Sis bought me scrubs already as an incentive, so that was cool). Thanks in advance. Have a Great Weekend..
