AT the risk of repeating myself, how can you do even one day at a time if you are hurting and in pain?
Do you just suffer with the pain, then at the end of the day say, well, I've made it through one more day but I hurt like hell and probably can't even get out of bed tomorrow.
Believe me I have tried this on numerous occasions and when the pain is just too much, I just don't make it through that day. I literally can't function.
NO matter how good of intentions I have, when my body starts to hurt, it consumes me. I can't concentrate on anything but the pain. I can't get anything done, I'm in a bad mood with my family and at work. I just can't wait until the moment I can lay down to soothe the pain some (that's my main priority all day while I'm not using) just to get done what I have to get done so I can lay down and not move and maybe I won't hurt.
What kind of a life is that?
Yes, I've made it through another day, but what was the quality of that day. The days will not get better as time goes on because the pain will not get better as time goes on.
I wish there was just a miracle or something to make the pain go away and I would be normal and happy and able to do things like normal people do.
To top it all off, I have recently (well, I've felt it coming on for a while)began to get severe arthritis in my hands. I can barely tie my shoes or open a can of corn without severe pain. And writing kills my fingers. But I have as yet not taken anything for these knew aches and pains but added to everything else, they will soon bring me down even further. I try to ignore the arthritis stuff and pretend it's not really there, it's just in my head but I know it is, IT HURTS!
It is so discouraging. When I take the pain medicine, I am fairly normal and can do my job and have a little happy outlook but when I try to force myself to go a day without them it's a living hell. (not withdrawl, just being in pain because I haven't taken my meds.)
Sorry I'm rambling here but I just would like to know if there's a solution to this vicious cycle. Any advice or opinions out there?