Domestic Violence: What Leaving Feels Like

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As nurses, we often feel that we know how to help someone. We KNOW that a woman in an abusive relationship should leave, just leave. And we tell her so. But do we have any idea what leaving feels like? Some of us do.

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    Domestic Violence:  What Leaving Feels Like

    Imagine you got up from your computer right this minute, and walked out of your house knowing you will never, ever come back. Maybe you had a chance to grab your purse on the way past the chair it's slung over, but more likely not. So you've walked out of your house with nothing but the clothes you have on your back -- not well chosen for whatever may come, but just something you threw on when you got up this morning. Old sweats, maybe, and flip-flops. Not even a pair of real shoes. Your car is sitting right there in the driveway, but you didn't get a chance to grab your purse or your car keys, so it's useless to you now. You may never see it again, either, despite the three or four years of payments you have yet to make. You've got about 90 seconds before he notices you're gone and comes looking for you; 90 seconds to disappear so he cannot find you. Do you run as far and as fast as possible, cross country and avoiding roads in the hope that he wonít spot you? Do you try to go to a neighbor's house? Will they even let you in, both of your eyes blackened and your face covered in blood?

    The neighbors have a good marriage, you know. You've walked past their house at dusk with your dog on a leash, and you've seen them all sitting around the dining table talking and laughing. That's what happy looks like. How can you knock at their door and ask them to hide you from your husband? Will they even understand how dangerous he is? Will being in their home put THEM at risk? How could you forgive yourself if their young children got hurt because they were hiding you?

    Inside your house is your grandmother's dresser, your great-grandfather's steamer trunk and the mirror he bought your great grandmother as a wedding present. How can you leave those treasures behind? How can you not? Your computer is there, with all your bank account information, your passwords, your LIFE. The blue and white china you picked out when you were newly engaged and feeling so hopeful about the future and so happy about the present, the silver your mother gave you that HER mother scrimped and saved to buy. Your clothes. We're not talking about the contents of a walk-in closet here and the results of a lifetime of shopping prowess, but clean underwear, a nightgown, a pair of jeans and a clean sweater. Real shoes instead of the flip flops you're wearing, and scrubs to wear to work. Your mother's jewelry, your grandmother's wedding ring and the watch your parents gave you for graduation. All of that still in the house.

    Your time is running out. Quick!!! What do you do? You want to live, but you don't want to live like this anymore, but you know you canít run in those flip-flops and you hear his heavy steps coming to the front door to look for you. What are you going to do? Disappear? Or convince him that you just came outside to get the spare jug of laundry detergent from the garage, go back inside and try to leave another day -- a day when hopefully you have your purse and your car keys and a change of clothes? If youíre lucky enough to survive his anger for one more night.
    Last edit by Joe V on Jun 22
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    Ruby Vee has 38 years of nursing experience, four years of experience in an abusive marriage and 27 years as a survivor of domestic violence.

    Ruby Vee joined Jun '02 - from 'the Midwest'. Ruby Vee has '38' year(s) of experience and specializes in 'ICU/CCU'. Posts: 8,479 Likes: 30,485; Learn more about Ruby Vee by visiting their allnursesPage

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    Good article. It's not as easy to leave as some people think.
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    Another great article.
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    Great article one of the hardest topics, it is easy to say just leave but it isn't that simple I know I was there once. Now when I hear someone talk about their abusive relationship I know I cannot just say leave him/her there has to be a great support system and a plan so one doesn't have to be forced to go back witch always seems to be the easiest when the the struggles begin. Listen first that is a good start sometimes that's the first thing a person in that situation needs "to vent"
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    Our hospital has a question on the admission assessment form that reads "do you feel safe in your home?" I was so glad to see it added. It at least gives the patient a "neutral" context in which to open dialogue.

    Fear and isolation, and lack of knowledge of resources available to them is a big part of "why women choose to stay." Developing an exit strategy is key: if women know how to get out, and get out safely it can help expedite the process before it gets to the point of running to the neighbors with a bloodied face and with an explosive, dangerous man in pursuit.
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    So very powerful and eye opening....
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    Powerful.
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    Wow, very well written and real.
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    Thank you for this. Over the weekend one of my favorite aides came to work after sending her abuser to jail for the night. We have suspected that he was hurting her but she never said anything. I have been searching for things to say to help her keep her courage to stay away from him. She keeps going back...
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    As much support as you and others can give. Going back is complicated and personal so simple "why do they stay" comments I believe are non supportive. Finding an advocate to guide her through the systems is one strategy. There are some good resources for women in these situations. Being proactive to find the advocacy agencies before a crisis is another suggestion.
    mrsmamabear2002, NurseSDP, KatL.RN, and 2 others like this.


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