I graduated from an LPN program in this past June, took and passed my PN boards. Started an LPN-RN program four weeks later. I am totally discouraged and feel like I have been beaten by the system.
I loved my LPN program; it was challenging and busy but I did well, got A's and B's the whole way through. Really liked my teachers and my classmates, and I was totally motivated. Finished with a 3.8 GPA, went to school 2 days a week, then 1 or 2 days of clinical per week usually, but I always got home to see my husband and daughter after days at school. Now I'm in the RN program, they only offer evenings, so I hang out all day, go to school from 5-9 pm four evenings a week. Every Sunday, when I put my daughter to bed, I have to tell her I won't see her again until Friday because she is in school all day when I'm home, and she comes home after I leave for school. I spend all weekend crying because I know that in a few days I will be missing her again. I don't see my husband much either but at least I see him when I come home before I crash into bed.
The RN program sucks, none of us are doing well at all. We were getting A's and B's in the LPN program, now we will be happy to pass this quarter at all. On the last pharmacology test, the average class grade was a 67%. We have one teacher for all our classes, and she is truly awful. Just an awful teacher, and no one understands her. So after two tests in each class, my grades have gone from bad to worse, I'm really worried about passing these classes. And I know that no employer really cares what grades you get in nursing school
, but I care, and I don't want to go out there knowing I almost failed pharmacology or med/surg or whatever. I just want to stop for awhile until I get my head on straight, but I know that if I stop, I might not go back for my RN. I'm tired of trying, and I"m tired of trying to try. I feel very defeated, and I miss my family, and I'm wondering if I should just give in to my gut, even though I do really want to finish school and get my RN.
I know no one can tell me what to do, but I need some encouragement or advice, or maybe someone has felt like this too. Mainly I just needed to vent.