I'm a new grad as of May 2010. Of course, there are few jobs in my area, so I'm trilled when offered a position in LTC. I recently finished my first week alone and hated it. All I do is pass meds all 8 hours. I have no time for patients interaction. I rush through everything I ever do. I'm suppose to work 3-11, but I find myself coming in at 2:30pm and leaving between 1 and 2 am. I cry before I go into work and cry when I leave. I have no time for anything else than work because the job is Monday-Friday. Some people at work tell me that it will get better with time....others say that it will never get better because they need 3 nurses on second shift.
I know most of you are probably thinking that I'm whining for no reason. I know that many people do this everyday, but I'm so depressed about it. I can't just quit because the bills are piling up, but I don't know what to do.
Not to mention that many people have told me to just pass 9pm meds with 5pm unless its a narc, which makes me really nervous. Is this the only way to get things done? It scares me to death to think that on Friday I had to sent a resident out to the hospital before 9pm med pass. I can't remember if I passed 9pm meds to her with her 5pm....can't remember if I signed the MAR before she left.
I'm scared, depressed, hate my job, and have no way out. I guess I'm just asking for some encouragement or advice.