This is my first semester in nursing school
. I am doing Foundations. I have NEVER had any experience in the medical field. This is a second career for me. I am a hands on learner but for some reason, when I get in the clinical lab, I start to doubt myself and lose all confidence in myself. I am just a handful of non-traditional students in a traditional BSN program. I feel like the slow one when I ask several questions and the younger students can seem to pick up on something the first time around. I have a younger lab partner (20 yrs old) and I can feel her getting frustrated with me when I asked her if I can do BP readings on her with the instructor watching after lab was over. She has taken a CNA course and is able to catch on very quickly, I need more time to make sure I am getting it right.
Today, we had to do a foley cath on a dummy and I took about 20 minutes to completely finish because I wanted to make sure I didnt contaminate things (I admit, I'm a little anal) and I tried to do the procedure exactly as the instructor has shown us. My lab partner was done in about 10 minutes and just stood there looking at me as I was going over the checkoff list (more like glaring at me).
As we were leaving lab today one of the younger students made a comment that she hopes the instructor just don't "pass people just because she likes them" because it's clearly some people who are not catching on. I had no doubt she was referring to me.
Today, I really thought about quitting and going back to work in the corporate world. Then I thought to myself, I've had 14 years of experience (mostly hands on training) and it's just going to take me a while to get it right, but I guess I'm so concerned with not looking as effecient as the other students it's starting to get to me (considering I'm the oldest student in the class)
Any suggestions? Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.
Mar 6, '07
I didn't have experience either and felt like a bumbling idiot at first. I was your age too when I started. I promise you even the cocky self-assured ones have the same feelings, they are just masking them with confidence.
It's a universal experience and you are not alone. Don't let the trolls and their comments bother you. Good luck!
Last edit by Tweety on Mar 6, '07