I had a needle stick three months into my career. I was quite scared!!! Not only for me, BUT for my husband!! I was torn up about it for a long time and found myself crying about it a lot. How could I be so clumbsy was the phrase that kept going through my mind!! This is great, what a way to start a my NEW career!!
Then my Husband helped me out by reciting His favorite Prayer to me.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference."
If you believe, then let God take away your worries!!
I am not trying to PREACH to you at all, but I am aware of what you are going through!! PURE HELL!! You probablly have pictured your whole life fly by you in one instance because of that one stupid and clumbsy mistake!! I did!!
Hold strong. Take care. And I will say a prayer for You.