I completely disagree ladynsadaq! When I loose the God given gift of compasson and caring, I hope God will be good enough to my patients to remove me from nursing all together. There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with crying over a patient; most of us have done it several times. I've done it the first day of having a patient, do you suggest I just remove myself from nursing since your rotation philosophy won't work there? What is wrong is when a nurse becomes so damn cold hearted that they are robotic in their care, rather than humanistic. I've seen this before too, and I hate to work with these nurses.
Hugs to you, I know exactly what you're saying; what you felt. When I first started nursing, I had this anger about all these CP kids. I felt like we shouldn't have coded them; like it would have been more just to allow them to die. I felt sorry for their parents because their lives were "monopolized" to care for this poor vegetative child. The more I was around these kids, the more I watched their eyes, the more I watched the love parents have for these kids; I came to understand true love. Now I sometimes look in these; these DEEP eyes. I see a child in there who has much to say, just no means to express thoughts. Sometimes I wonder if these kids aren't beyond us "normal" people, perhaps their thoughts are more intellect than we'll ever imagine. I think perhaps they are happier than we could even dream of being. Watch one give a semi-smile, show a fraction of the way we show "happiness", it's different...deeper, more sincere. Watch a parent care for this child, THAT is unconditional love. Watch a parent cry when this child dies; it's no different than a parent of a "normal" child dying. So, who are we to say? I say love 'em and care for 'em, they are precious!
God bless you thisnurse..and if ever me or mine are in this same situation, I only hope to be fortunate enough to have you as a nurse.