I've only posted a few times earlier, and it was mainly to lend an insight to my journey of studying and passing the NCLEX (THANK GOD thats over).
I passed on Nov, 28 2012 and By December 12 I had 2 jobs. I work FT as an IV nurse for an alternative medicine clinic and Per diem as an urgent care pediatric nurse. The first couple of weeks were nerve wrecking, wondering if I had what I took to be an RN, without a clinical instructor peering over my shoulder telling me I was doing something wrong...or even right! I cried during my orientation, which was only a week at my IV job, and 2 shifts at my pediatric urgent care job....talk about being thrown into the wolves den! But nonetheless, I survived and am proud of the nurse I am becoming and already am.
My issue, is not really an issue, more of observation of myself. I've gotten quite good at IVs, I've always been good at them, even during clinicals, but with me starting 5-10 IVS a day, not including, non-iv sticks but blood draws, I'd say I've gotten pretty good, had some embarrassing moments and have had people tell me "WOW! You're the best person to have ever stuck me!" ^_^
I've gotten REALLY hard sticks, and have found new and inventive ways to feel and find veins, still learning tons, but happy with where I am at in terms of PIVs and BD. HERE is my problem, there is a man, who in general makes me uncomfortable...but he is a sweet man, and has done nothing that would make me feel uneasy, its just a vibe I get.... I have seen far worse sticks, and have succeeded, then this man, but for the life of me I cannot get him started. He gets an IV push every Tuesday. I/we use 23g butterflys on him bc the push is only over 20 minutes.
THESE are my favorite, next to blooddraws, no angiocath, nothing, just needle insertion, blood return boom IV. WELL, out of 10 times that I have tried him (NOT INCLUDING the times I've RETRIED) I have only gotten a successful attempt maybe 3 times. I always blow it. ALWAYS literally and figuritively. I got him the first time, and then from there it was downhill. Its mortifying when he comes in, all patient as can be, and yet....I end up mostly grabbing the iv certified ND to come and gloat and get him with no problem. UNACCEPTABLE. H.is veins do roll, but nothing I've not dealt with. His veins are deep in some areas, again, something I am not new too
I have people who beg me to draw them and schedule appts just to be sure I am there for the IV start.
This is so crushing to the ego. I know its mental, but why and how do I get over this? I find myself onhis appt days dreading it on my way to work....and he won't even be in until late in the afternoon.
It makes me feel incompetent. Just some words of wisome and advice from fellow nurses.
I always get blood return and then the vein blows.
UGH!!!!!! Hes coming in at 230 and im already dreading it.
Thanks so much.