Not sure how to start this. I guess I would first like to say that I have immense respect for nurses of all areas and specialties, from the most advanced, specialized nurse to the "just-a-floor-nurse" nurses. I have posted previously about career decisions and advice, and here I am back again. I'll start by telling you that I am a young nurse, and have only been in nursing for 1.5 years, all of that time being either med-surg or med-telemtry.
I realize I am very young in my career, so I am sure there are many who just want to roll their eyes immediately because I haven't "paid my dues", and I understand that. But I have always thought that if something is making you truly unhappy or causing a certain amount of grief, it is just not worth it.
Like many, I come here today to basically complain about my job (that I realize I'm lucky to have at all), but also to ask for genuine advice, as I honestly don't know where else to go or what else to do. My woes are nothing that a little browsing on this board won't find you plenty of: the lack of support staff, the over-working, the madatory OT, disrespect and harrassment from higher-ups, doctors, family members, and patients, and so on and so forth. These everyday problems of a nurse have become too much for me to bear.
I complain everyday to my loving and understanding husband, but he is unsure of where to guide me. The anxiety has consumed me. I have applied to over 100 other positions, both internally and in other hospitals and nothing has panned out. I have thought over and over again about leaving nursing all together to go back to a job with much less stress. I have thought about taking time off from nursing to see if it's something that I truly want to do, but fear that if I went that path, re-entering nursing would find me in my current situation (working a job that I try everyday to get out of). Obviously there are many different nursing jobs
out there, but we all know they want more and more experience than ever before. To be quite honest, I believe the only thing keeping me in nursing is my financial responsibility.
I know, I know. Woe is me, at least I have a job, the grass is always greener.
Thank you to whoever takes the time to read this lengthy post, and an even bigger thanks to anyone willing to offer advice. The most thanks and blessings of all to all the nurses dealing with this same crap everyday.