I've got another question and don't know if it's considered a "stupid" question or not. I'll give you my background first (for those who have not read my earlier posts) and what had happened. I'm currently on my 8th week of working as a new RN, but I have only worked 2 weeks (2 shifts total) off of orientation.
I worked as the second RN last night, which consisted of 4 admissions, assessing 14 patients and giving IV pushes (the LPNs did the med pass and took care of the patients). I had a new admit around 1 am and did not know they were NPO until later and I did not even think to ask. I picked up from watching other nurses that you always check before giving anything to eat or drink. I was having so much anxiety because I still had to chart on all the patients and I was administering blood to another patient (they were already on their 3rd unit) so my judgment was not where it should have been. The LPN had already brought them ice (so I was assuming that they were not NPO. That's what I get for assuming).
Anyways, my shift did not end until 7:30 that morning and it did not even hit me until I woke up this evening that I had let them have ice and they were NPO. I'm freaking out because I made a mistake like that and called the nursing supervisor who had worked that shift. They kind of giggled and said that giving them ice would actually be the "best" thing (as in least harmful mistake) to have accidentally given them since they were NPO. The patient was fine and to not worry about it.
I asked if this would be considered a write up or something like that and was told no, but it would be if it happened again.
Here is my actual question: Am I stupid for "telling on myself" by asking about something like this? I've already made "little" mistakes that I've caught and once I calm down I realize that these are small mistakes, although still mistakes, that I shouldn't worry so much about them. Is this normal to worry like this as a new RN? I'm beginning to wonder if nursing is right for me because I stress so much about everything.
"Am I stupid for "telling on myself" by asking about something like this?"
I sense, at this time, you are motivated primarily by fear and anxiety in wanting to do a good job. Not that this is bad. I'm thinking that maybe you are just a real conscientious Nurse. And you will develop from this point, continuing to be meticulous, with time and experience, your anxiety will decrease.
I even applaud the fact that you told on yourself, so to speak. Had you said you were doing a scrupulous re-evaluation of your questionable actions, I would have applauded you all the more. Just because it sounds less self-deprecating.
"Is this normal to worry like this as a new RN?"
You know, personalities vary and some Individuals slide into their positions gracefully with obvious self-assuredness. Others stumble around in the dark and hit and miss on their goals appearing not have a clue. Some have a laisserfaire or devil-may-care attitude and go about their business with all the compassion of a Social Director on a Cattleboat.
I sense you are One who cares about your Patients and the care you provide. You may be a worrier by nature. If you can find a happy Medium and not be so hard on yourself, you will be (and that's not saying that you already aren't) a great Nurse.
The very best to you.
Last edit by sirI on Mar 9, '12