I looked out the window and It's such a pretty day outside here..sunny and a bit cool....springy! I actually smiled and felt good. I havent felt that way in a long time. I will have been a nurse fr a year in June and although I have gotten good experience and made decent money, I am going to go back to school. I am not really sure what but I dont think I want to be a nurse full time anymore......it has drained me emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually. There is a laundry list of cons. How many other professions make u feel guilty for cramming a sandwich down your throat because someone may die since u decided to eat something before you pass out? I havent been taking care of my self or making time for what is truly important -my family and friends. I am worn out from the job. One day we will all have health issues or challenges in life......I dont want to invest 10 years in this career and be miserable, I want to enjoy life. I want to be able to have energy to go walking on a spring day or go to a barbecue.....or get excited over stuff again in life. I have become increasingly depressed, anxious, stressed, and sad since becoming a nurse. Believe it or not, nursing school
seems like the good ol days now! Now dont get me wrong, I do like the money and occasionally u have patients how appreciate you and you feel like u are doing something........but 85% of the time I just go through the motions, I am a good nurse and I am caring but I am becoming worn out and at times bitter and miserable. So.....I am excited! After my year is up, I will work PRN.....I will like the flexibility and go back to school for something else........the people who decide to stay in nursing, I applaud you guys but it isnt for everyone.......life is too short to put so much time in a career that you really do not fin joy in......my family and friends are important, my health. But after almost a year of nursing I feel like I can do anything!! I do feel more confident and am finding being a nurse feeling more natural.......its starting to "click" but I know in my heart I dont want this to be my PRIMARY career, I will work PRN while I am in school and then afterwards to keep my skills and plus I think I will like nursing better in small doses.....and it will help financially. I was gonna get my masters but I cant imagine investing 2-3 years of my life and more loans for something I dont truly want to do full time. But I feel good. What are your plans after the 1st year?
Mar 13, '07
I have to say this is very discouraging to read all these stories after all those years of hard work to become an RN. This why I will most likely go to straight to working in the OR to avoid the bedside dumping of grad nurses. I still believe nurses should have a mandated internships like physicians do, to train them properly and give them an experience of what it will really be like for them. I still do not understand how hospitals are hiring brand new grads straight into ICU's with no experience. Oh heck maybe I will just go into NICU, let see the patients cant talk, check, easy on the back, check, Patient cant ambulate, check, patients are always clean and smell nice, check, makes u feel good and warm inside, check, Ah I love being a nurse. :spin:
Last edit by PACNWNURSING on Mar 13, '07