New nurse feeling overwhelmed and miserable! - page 2
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First off, I would like to state that I know I am extremely blessed to have landed a job in an acute care hospital very close to graduation. I know there are many new grads that look for jobs for months before they find... Read More
- 1Oct 24, '12 by BrendaH84Quote from not.done.yetI agree with what EVERYONE has said, but I really agree with the above statement, I go so long with not enough sleep that I feel sick. my heart feels bad! my adrenal glands kick in every few minutes to "wake me up" then I get sleepy again, till finally my chest hurts-I feel sick, and I take a Benadryl and sleep---as much as12-13 hours..several times this has happened and I feel like my old self after all of that sleep, then the cycle begins again. Add the stress of being a new nurse, the preceptors are not always nice, and the fear of "how WILL i know all of this stuff in a few months when i am on my own", and I just keep wondering, aren't there jobs where a new grad-or ANY nurse can go, where I don't have so many patients at once and so much paperwork?I felt EXACTLY the same way. ....
You aren't alone. The anxiety gets better with time, but I truly believe not everyone can and should work nights. If you are one of those people, get on the list to transfer to days asap. I hope this gets much much better for you!
plus I've heard through the grapevine that my preceptor talks bad about me all the time (she's really odd, nuff said about that, i actually don't take it personally, but I don't want her ruining my brand new reputation!)
just venting! lol lol
- 9Nov 1, '12 by CatzillaDude. People say that the first year will be tough. That nursing school and working in the hospital are worlds apart. For the most part, I think we listened. But in no way could we have understood. No way could we have really known what we were in for.
I did not think I'd be THAT new grad. You know- the one who is painfully anxious, nervous, awkward, and blows at time management. But I AM. But you know, so what. They gave us a chance-we got the job. We're going to be wobbly on our legs at first. Not gonna quit. I Look forward to the Fall of 2013.
When I'm a more confident, less spastic, new-ISH nurse who survived their first year.
Here's to the future!!!:***:
- 0Nov 2, '12 by Anne36Im also a new grad LPN going through the exact same thing. Ive been sick , nauseated, cant eat or sleep, having nightmares about work. It seems like I have already made a few mistakes at work, but nothing directly related to patient care. Everyone has been okay when I leave my shift but it seems like there is still way too much to learn. The last week has been very rough for me. I pray that tommorow night goes okay for me. I need 1 good night.
- 0Nov 3, '12 by barnstormin'I'm totally in agreement with all of you, and feeling the same way. I don't feel like barfing and crying every morning anymore after 5 1/2 months, and I am more confident and feel more familiar with the ICU routine. But I still feel like a pretend nurse and can't wait to get a year or to in so I feel a bit more relaxed and knowledgable about everything. I'm tired of worrying ALL the Time lol.
- 0Nov 4, '12 by BlueJeanWow- this is a relief to read. I am a new grad (May) on a critical care unit and, despite good school grades and a successful previous career, I am apparently HORRIBLE at nursing. Argh. My first preceptor was so on top of everything, I basically just shadowed her. Didn't realize the problem until NEXT preceptor saw I had no independence, no independent priority-setting practice, etc. So now I'm mid- termination process and am nauseated and miserable all the time. So humiliating and disappointing! First couple shifts with third preceptor went great- so maybe something is finally clicking. Lawd.
- 0Nov 5, '12 by babysteps25No need to apologize for venting - nursing can be stressful!! I can totally relate to the original poster. I am 8 months into my nursing career and still obsess over events from my shift even when I'm not at work. I am fortunate enough to be on day shift, but the night before I work I have a hard time falling asleep because I am anxious about my upcoming shift or oversleeping - I set 4 alarms every night!! Benadryl and melatonin do not work well for me either.
- 0Nov 5, '12 by littlenurse21Quote from NikkiC213LITERALLY covered EVERYTHING I was planning to post. I mean, you didn't leave a single thing out. The criticism, the feeling of incompetence. Although, I do take it as constructive criticism, but after a while you feel incompetent and discouraged especially when your preceptor is not really reassuring you but rather reminding you how you've only made it to 2 patients and have 10 more weeks left on orientation. Mind you, my patients are like ICU patients and I'm expected to handle 6-7 of them.You are not alone! I've been in my new grad program working on the floor for almost a month now. However, I always feel like a nervous wreck. My preceptor always dings me on my charting and how my time management skills are. But what can I do? I'm new! She knows that but I'm starting to feel so discouraged. Maybe I'm being too hard on myself but I'm also trying to pick up the pace on my tasks. Last night after my shift, I cried before going to bed thinking maybe nursing isn't for me and I get scared that some of my coworkers think I'm incompetent when I'm really not. I have about 5-6 weeks before I finish my program but I'm starting to dread going into work. Help how do you guys work on your time management? I'm awful at discharges and admits but more on the admits since it takes forever. My preceptor even pointed that out and it kinda hurt but I am trying my best
My main problems are level of comfort, confidence, speed [time management], prioritizing.. so i guess EVERYTHING! One of the things my preceptor and nurse specialist keep telling me is to find "my system" when starting off my day. I completely agree with the importance of this component but how do I find my system when I'm trying to figure out the whole entire picture.
Does anyone have any advice on how they conduct their routine day? Any tips appreciated!
- 0Nov 9, '12 by anotheroneroutine night shift- I go in get my assignment asap an then look everyone up, read last few doctor's notes, look over mar quickly and all nursing orders, check to see if any testing or labs need to be done. i come in early even after 2 years and always will, makes the whole shift easier. then i get report. then if all pts seem stable enough i go assess and give meds to the pt i think will be the fastest, any walkie talkies who wont need to be changed or require trach care, etc. get in and out and maybe chart on that pt, ( we have emr so i can do charting on a routine assessment in a few minutes) then onto the next pt. but on a typical shift i may get 2 empty beds and be assigned them at 1910 with pacu and er on the phone before i am doing report on my other pts. the extreme anxiety and dread decreased significantly after 5-6 months but not completely . i have had nurses with 20years of experience tell me they still get anxious and dread it