I want to share my experience. I am a new grad that got hired at one of new jersey's top hospitals (very busy hospital). I am currently on my 7th week of orientation, first 3 weeks being in a classroom, so I've really had 4 weeks of clinical orientation. I graduated this past May and have my BSN. I feel like nursing school just teaches you the basics, they dont teach you all you have to know for the real world. I feel like i have learned a TON in the past 4 weeks being on the floor. I am still getting used to things, and it is VERY overwhelming at times. This floor is BUSY, if someone is getting d/c there is someone coming down the hall to be admitted. I am on my feet for 12.5 hours. I have a preceptor, but it seems to me like she is too busy to help me at times. I feel like an idiot half the time i am there, i know people say the first 6 months of a new job as a nurse is terrifying, they were not lying. I got called in for a meeting the other day with my manager and my educator (every orientee has a manager of the floor, preceptor, and an educator), they told me that I am not where I should be at this point of orientation.. as i heard this, i was devastated.. ashamed. I havent made any mistakes, I always ask my preceptor when I am not sure of something. When I confronted my preceptor about this she just told me that she didn't realize it was already my 7th week and she wasn't trying to rush through things with me but she has to now because of administration only allows 12 weeks of orientation. Is this my fault? They told me they are going to put me back on 8 hour shifts and keep me at only 4 patients because they found that this has helped other orientees in the same position as i am. I left the other day in tears, and cried for hours after i got home. I am known to be very hard on myself at times. I just feel so helpless, I am straight out of school, i feel like I need to be taught things but its just so hard when my preceptor is so busy. I feel like i am going to be let go when it comes to the 12th week point and its going to be hard to tell my family and my friends why they let me go. Im devastated and its all I think about. Has anyone been through this or felt the same as me during their orientation?