Quote from SuesquatchRN
You don't need out of nursing. You need to see you PCP. Maybe.
My first year as a nurse was horrible. It's still not easy. Even some of the CNAs have what I consider to be superior clinical assessment skills because they've been watching these types of patients for years while I have not.
Ask your co-workers for opinions before calling the doctor. When they tell you you're obsessing about "every little thing" just smile and say, "Probably. I'm not confident enough yet not to."
And relax. You are doing well.
Oh, and as to the one who thinks you're anti-social? So what? One person thinks you're anti-social. But when everyone IS relaxing for 10 minutes at least stand nearby.
That's the thing. I DO ask my coworkers for their opinions before calling the doctor. And this is what I was told.
I was also told to "relax and try to have fun". I'm really trying but when I am told mostly constructive feedback, it's hard for me to relax in fear of I may be missing something.
Last week, I had a really good preceptor. My pt's heart rate dropped to the 40's, BP 80's/30's and no pulses. My preceptor called for help and asked for the code to be called. I automatically asked for the crash cart and jumped on the bed and started compressions. The pt was brought back. My preceptor said I did very well in that emergency. I felt so good about being a nurse THAT night. Then I come back the very next night with a different preceptor and then I question my ability as a nurse all over again.
I do try to be more outgoing because I am an outgoing person by nature, but when you hear so much gossip and negativity about everyone's job performance, it makes it hard to open up and talk about nothing other than work. As a new nurse, I already have zero confidence and then to hear the more experienced nurses talk about someone else's nursing abilities just really makes me think what they are saying about me behind my back. So, I try not to give them nothing to talk about, no matter how many questions I ask.
Thanks for the advice about seeing someone. I actually have an appointment with my therapist after the new year.