I just need to talk out loud and thank all of you in advance for listening....
There is so much going on in my life right now that I am starting to feel overwhelmed.
1. We found out about a month ago that our grandson is not our grandson:eek:. My son had a paternity test done and it states that he has 0% probability of being the father. The story is too long so this is all I will say on the subject.
2. The roof in our bedroom has been leaking and the cieling needs to be replaced:urgycld:.
3. My precious little dog named sammy, who I have had for the last 12 years may have a tumor in his throat:bluecry1:. Will find out soon, just hoping I have the money to help him.
4. I started a new job in a psych facility and they have been calling me off at least once a week. I cant live on only 24hrs a week in pay. I got the feeling they are going to start laying people off or I will only get one day a week of work. I wish I would have never taken this new job:banghead:. They say we might be on low census the entire summer.
Now I sit here wondering, how am I going to pay my bills. How will I help my precious little dog? I am feeling so down trodden at this moment and feel like crying:cry:.
I dont think I have ever been in this situation as far as I can remember. What a horrible feeling. My husband and I have worked so hard just to make a living and now it is going down hill.
Today I have been applying any and everywhere, even 80 miles away just to find a job that will pay my bills. I was hoping to go back to school for my RN, but will probably have to put it on hold.
I keep telling myself "this too shall pass".
I just cant seem to find the light at the end of the tunnel:(.
Specializes in Community Health, Med-Surg, Home Health.
I am sorry to hear of your troubles, especially about your pet when vets are so expensive!! I also agree that you should try and continue a relationship with this child that your son took care of...this means that this child may not know who his father is. How old is the child? If he is at that age where he does have memories of you, it may confuse him to suddenly not be in your life...but I can also understand the possible anger that your son is experiencing.
Its not how many times you fall, its how many times you pick yourself back up. ...... get up, dust yourself off and keep on keeping on.....everything is going to work itself out.
I hope this means that all the burdens we are all meant to carry during our lives are coming to you all at once. There will be a light at the end of the tunnel, you may just have to drive a while to find it. One recommendation that I do have is to GET OUT OF PSYCH !!!!!! Nurses working with psych patients tend to end up bearing some of their burdens, and you can't handle any more right now. I am willing to bet that 5 years from now you will be a RN who looks back at this as an incredibly bad time, one that made you stronger. I know this is little consolation right now, but hang in there and don't be shy about leaning on the people who care about you for a change.
I wanted to update everyone on how things are going. First off my little sammy is doing better. His cough is gone!!!! The vet switched his antibiotic and he immediately started getting better. I give all the thanks to our fathter in heaven and all the prayers sent my way!!!!
Secondly, I am leaving psych. Not because I did not enjoy the job, but because I have only been getting 24hrs a week and I can not pay my bills on that amount of money. They keep low censusing us and said it will be this way all summer.
I found a job out of town about 38 miles away. It takes me 30 minutes to get there. It is a night position in LTC and the hospital. It is full-time 8 hour shifts 1030pm-7am and I will also be making $2.60 more an hour than I do now.
God is so good!!!!!
Thank you each and everyone for all your support and prayers!!!!!!
I see that you are located in "God's Country". What a good place to be. I said a prayer for you as I was reading your post and my hugs go out to you and everyone involved!!!
pagandeva2000, LPN
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I am sorry to hear of your troubles, especially about your pet when vets are so expensive!! I also agree that you should try and continue a relationship with this child that your son took care of...this means that this child may not know who his father is. How old is the child? If he is at that age where he does have memories of you, it may confuse him to suddenly not be in your life...but I can also understand the possible anger that your son is experiencing.
Wishing you the very best!