I have been working as an RN for 6 months now. Enough time to rub the innocence and naivety off of anyone I think. My position is in a long term care, and seems to be equal helpings of caring for the geriatric population and providing support for families with loved ones in our home.
In the last half a year, I have walked with 25 people as they complete life's final transition- dying. I have talked to dozens of families about what to expect at end of life, what's normal, and what are uncomfortable symptoms that we can control with medication and other interventions.
Every family that I have worked with as we support their loved one is different. All are dealing with something new- losing their loved one- and most are experiencing very acute grief. Most families are excellent, and are in agreement with our general philosophy of care, to promote comfort at end of life. But some aren't. And that is really the crux of this post.
Some families don't want pain medication, because they want their loved one to be alert. Some families want to keep feeding their loved one, even though they are not alert enough to protect their airways. Some families want their loved one up in the chair all day, despite excruciating pain.
It is about these families that I hear my coworkers say "I would never treat my father/mother/friend that way" or "they are just totally out of touch".
And it is about these families that perhaps I still wear my rose-coloured-new-nurse-glasses. Because I truly don't see myself as having a right to have an opinion, outside of my professional explanations and recommendations for care. I don't see that I have the right to harshly compare what my decisions for my loved ones would be against the decisions made by others. And to be honest, I don't see how my personal opinions are relevant at all to the care that I provide.
Truthfully, I see my role as both complex and simple: to provide concise and easy to understand information, to provide support, to present options, and to execute the decisions that families make based on the options that are presented. In my line of work, I don't claim the right to have any opinion outside of my professional assessment of a situation.
How about you?