I get everything you are going through.
Beennthere...haha! Seriously, I agree with just about everything that has been said so far. You DO sound like a conscientious nurse and are doing your best to prioritize your work. It does get easier in time, but it sounds like you are not being supported enough as a relatively new nurse. I’m going to assume you’ve asked for support, but then I understand that sometimes we get so overwhelmed we don’t even know what to ask for and just keep trying to get everything done.
I wouldn’t give up just yet, but as others have said, try getting counseling for support. It doesn’t mean you are weak, just that this profession can be very taxing in so many ways for even the most experienced. You need a good mentor also who can provide you with a sounding board, advice and simply to vent with. It made all the difference for me over the years....First med error, the time I ALMOST gave an injection hitting the sciatic nerve, the fist death I experienced and so much more...She saved me a lot of heartache and kept me going.