I was in my 4th week of orientation last week with a new preceptor. and the preceptor is nice, but wants me doing everything on my own.
She says "well if you have questions call me." ummm of course I have questions.
but I am pretty comfortable there, but still.
So the students come, and I am giving report, and I said to the day nurse. He has kasawi disease or kasai disease, Idon't know........
the students start rolling their eyes, and making side comments infront of my face.
well whatever... I dont' care. they will be new one day somewhere else.
but this week the same students came, and I was giving report and one of them was there from last week, paired up with another student.
so when I am giving report... I was ready, I wrote down everything needed to say about the patients.... so the new student (who by the way was a handsome, tall muscular, young man), looks at his class mate, points at me and she responds "yes" with a nod, then she gives him a thumb up. that I was doing a good job this time. that made me feel good. but still, they made me nervous because they are there judging me,
but I don't feel that I need to explain myself to them that I am new or anything like that. because I don't need to.
Thank Goodness my preceptor called out, so I was paired up with a new nurse for 2 nights in a row. I hope the preceptor calls out more. I feel that I have learned more from this new nurse than I have with the old preceptor.
She told me, ok, you chart, and I will give the meds >--- is that simple, to help out the new person when you know what you are doing yourself.
I really hope my preceptor is super sick (I know, it sounds mean) so I can get this new preceptor to orient me.
I have one week left after friday... and I feel good. but sometimes I feel like I've been thrown out there.........
does anyone else feel like this?