Stressed, Confused, Anxious

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I know not alot will reply to this post. This is mostly just about letting my thoughts out, and asking others about their experience/s or whatnot.

Feel free to reply, rant, give an advice, share your experience, whatever tickles your pickle.

So....

I took up nursing because of, well, the salary.

Which sucks because I love arts.

Anyway, I hated going to school. I had to drag myself to school, and cry, have anxiety attacks I had to hide until I get home. My school sucks. The professor sucks. And I'm not even being dramatic. We were roughly around 11-15 students. And the professors were only like 3 or 4? Depends.

So they had their favorite/s. Obviously, I was never one of them since I was a transferee (and I don't really mind lol)

Although I learned to love nursing. Literally nursing. I only loved the program because of the patients/ people I got to know and take care of. This is the ONLY reason that kept me going other than wanting to provide my parents' needs.

I've been to three different nursing schools (the description above is about my last two schools), mostly because of lack of financial issues, partly because I was looking for the right school. Which I know was a mistake.

I never failed any major subjects though. Even though the professors didn't admire me as much as they did others, some of them believed I will pass the board exam.

I don't know why. Up to this day, I'm still questioning myself.

I don't even know how or why I passed! I never took Anatomy and Physiology seriously, so it gave me a hard time, but I managed. Although I still don't know alot about AnaPhy until now! Most especially about meds!!

I graduated in 2016. I stopped thinking about taking the board exam and to enlist in the military instead. So I never really fixed what was needed to be fixed or gathered for the exam.

But in November 2017 (yes 2017 not a typo), I realized I can't enlist because I want to have a normal life, be close to my family, and to not be scared about issues happening inside the military.

So in December, I decided to take the exam.

Since I'm already abroad, I couldn't fix my papers/documents/requirements, and so I asked other people to do it.

But then the schools I attended to are very disorganized. VERY. DISORGANIZED. So they don't understand what the requirements are to be submitted even if we have explained it over and over.

.... Okay, to cut the story short. I'm so stressed, confused and anxious if I'm even going to be eligible.

I'm always being asked about when I'll be taking the test, my father always asks me for an update about my requirements (if it's already done processing)

Everyone's either working or taking up their Master's.

I'm so s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d out

I don't even understand what I'm trying to study.

I can't concentrate because I'm still lacking requirements which is MOSTLY my schools' fault.

WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS?

WHAT ARE YOUR TIPS?

ARE YOU EXPERIENCING SOMETHING SIMILAR?

H E L P

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I am sorry to hear that, take a deep breath and hope for the best and do not give up. I just finished my spring semester at sac state and it has been extremely difficult especially with the professors I had. I almost did not get chemistry and I was freaking out. Going onto my 3rd year with not knowing if I'd be pushed back another year. My freshman year I had a 4.0 all semester and as my sophomore year came around it began dropping. I have read nothing but terrible reviews about the chemistry professors which is extremely scary because it is our future that it'll affect not theirs.

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Specializes in IMC.

My thought is that you really do not want to be a nurse. You just see being a nurse as a paycheck not a career; this is why you are struggling and have been to three different schools! If the Arts are truly something you like, pursue that instead. Nursing is not easy (as it should be). I get so tired of reading these posts about going into Nursing for the money!!

Get out out of Nursing and pursue what you really want to do for a career!

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Specializes in Med/Surge, Psych, LTC, Home Health.
My thought is that you really do not want to be a nurse. You just see being a nurse as a paycheck not a career; this is why you are struggling and have been to three different schools! If the Arts are truly something you like, pursue that instead. Nursing is not easy (as it should be). I get so tired of reading these posts about going into Nursing for the money!!

Get out out of Nursing and pursue what you really want to do for a career!

Sounds like the stress the OP is having right now has nothing to do

with nursing in and of itself. Furthermore there's really nothing wrong

with going into nursing for the money. Really.

Now OP.... I wish I knew what advice to give you, but I'm afraid I don't

because your post is confusing to me. Have you graduated from an

accredited school with a nursing degree, or not? If so, is it just that

your school won't submit your records to the people who administer

the NCLEX? Or however that works..

it's been so long since I've been in school, I don't remember.

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I am sorry to hear that, take a deep breath and hope for the best and do not give up. I just finished my spring semester at sac state and it has been extremely difficult especially with the professors I had. I almost did not get chemistry and I was freaking out. Going onto my 3rd year with not knowing if I'd be pushed back another year. My freshman year I had a 4.0 all semester and as my sophomore year came around it began dropping. I have read nothing but terrible reviews about the chemistry professors which is extremely scary because it is our future that it'll affect not theirs.

Thanks for sharing!

That's exactly what I thought about the professors as well. Most professors I encountered were doing there job just to get it over with, without even thinking about their students' future!

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My thought is that you really do not want to be a nurse. You just see being a nurse as a paycheck not a career; this is why you are struggling and have been to three different schools! If the Arts are truly something you like, pursue that instead. Nursing is not easy (as it should be). I get so tired of reading these posts about going into Nursing for the money!!

Get out out of Nursing and pursue what you really want to do for a career!

Thank you for replying. I appreciate all kinds of response.

I get where you're coming from. Before college, I always wondered why people go to paths they are not passionate about or jobs they simply dread. And I was told to "find a career, not a job"

But I realized that some people stay in their job because they have to. Mostly because of financial reasons. And I fall into this category.

I'm not saying being in the fields of Arts will not lead me to a better path. But it's too late to go to that path for me because I don't have the means to, and being in nursing school left me with not much money to spend on what I really am passionate about.

Again, thanks for replying!

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Sounds like the stress the OP is having right now has nothing to do

with nursing in and of itself. Furthermore there's really nothing wrong

with going into nursing for the money. Really.

Now OP.... I wish I knew what advice to give you, but I'm afraid I don't

because your post is confusing to me. Have you graduated from an

accredited school with a nursing degree, or not? If so, is it just that

your school won't submit your records to the people who administer

the NCLEX? Or however that works..

it's been so long since I've been in school, I don't remember.

Hey, thanks for the thought and for replying!

Sorry if my post confused you.

I have graduated in an accredited school with a Bachelor's Degree in Nursing.

And yes, the school does not get what to submit to the Board of Nursing here in California. I studied in a different country, by the way.

Which is the number one thing that is stressing me out right now. I know I am to blame for being indecisive, and for not fixing my documents for the NCLEX before I came back to the US. (Well, thus this post... )

I am just terrified if I will not be eligible to take the NCLEX because so far, I do not have a back up and my parents aren't getting any younger. I promised them a better future, and yet, I am still stuck in this phase.

(Sorry for the long reply)

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Specializes in Pediatrics Retired.

Thank you for sharing your dilemma. My suggestion to you is to re-write your post, to yourself, and take out everything that doesn't refer to the first person - You - in other words re-write everything starting with or including "I", "I'm," etc., and don't include you referencing performance or participation by anyone else.

Therein should tell you what/whom to concentrate your efforts on. Best of luck!!

I went into nursing because it was the biggest bang for my college buck...

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Specializes in MCH,NICU,NNsy,Educ,Village Nursing.

OP--what could your professors have done differently? What could you do differently? How can you make it easier for the school to obtain the documents you need to take NCLEX? Be proactive instead of a victim. It is easy to place blame on others when things are not going the way we would like it to.

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Thank you for sharing your dilemma. My suggestion to you is to re-write your post, to yourself, and take out everything that doesn't refer to the first person - You - in other words re-write everything starting with or including "I", "I'm," etc., and don't include you referencing performance or participation by anyone else.

Therein should tell you what/whom to concentrate your efforts on. Best of luck!!

I went into nursing because it was the biggest bang for my college buck...

Thank you for replying, and for your advice. This is very kind of you.

I will do this and hope it works out. Thank you so much

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OP--what could your professors have done differently? What could you do differently? How can you make it easier for the school to obtain the documents you need to take NCLEX? Be proactive instead of a victim. It is easy to place blame on others when things are not going the way we would like it to.

Hello! Thanks for replying.

The country I have studied in has ranks for Nursing schools Nationwide. ALL Nursing school focuses on their rank therefore, instead of helping their students, they were more likely to save themselves and pressure the students instead of guiding them. Although, the good thing about this was it helped me understand almost everything on my own. I don't entirely blame the school's system, but isn't their education what I paid for? For me to learn and understand? Anyway, I guess to this point, I blame myself the most for my decisions.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I like your idea of being proactive. I will keep that in mind.

These kinds of comments help me clear my thoughts. Thank you.

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I can definitely see the artist in you. Your mind sounds like a very messy, disorganized place. I love the suggestion that you "redo" your post/thoughts and narrow your focus. You've got too much floating around in your head at once.

Working for money is perfectly acceptable, by the way.

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