Words can't describe how I feel currently. I can't sleep, I find no pleasure in my activities, nothing.
It all began last Thursday, I took the NCLEX for the first time here in Michigan. I studied for a good while, didn't feel prepared, but went anyways because really - who does?
I was pleasantly surprised come test day - I didn't feel it was really impossibly hard, and finished at 75 questions in 45 minutes. I waited patiently for two days for my quick results, and they never came.
I found out my test results are on hold for some reason - so I came here and searched around for others who experienced this, those who had all had one thing in common: we took the test quickly. Upon calling the NCSBN, I was told it was for 'random Q/A' checks and that I couldnt be given any information but that it should take NLT 3 business days. I later received an email in the day essentially saying, "there is no time limit to 'investigations'"
Business day 4, and here I am, exhausted. My entire life is on hold right now while my exam is scoured over. I'm a new grad with an RN position full time on DAYS on a unit I LOVE and interned on over the summer - but I may lose that position if I don't get results soon, my package for military commission in the Navy in stopped dead in its tracks until I get those results and sadly, for that I have a deadline. Lastly, the RN to BSN program I wanted to attend fills up rather quick and I may not be able to attend at all this Fall.
I just don't want to deal with this anymore. I can't believe I came all this way just to be stopped here - I didn't do anything wrong, so why am I being punished? Why won't they tell me anything?? Every night I wake up at least 10 times, and all day I just can't enjoy any book I read or movie I watch. I really need some advice of any kind at all, i'm starting to lose it.
